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Hey girl. I wouldnt have held off writing a day or so, but I needed to collect my thoughts. The past couple of days have not been good, to say the least. Im not sure if you heard about my Dad or not; its been all over the radio, and I know that everything has been bouncing around every station. I cant believe that he tried to take his own life! What is he thinking??? Theres something else going on and I dont like the feeling that Ive had since I found out yesterday morning (Friday morning). Sorry, but why did I choose to write now? It was so quiet for all of 3 minutes. All of a sudden the monkeys started throwing poo all over again. Why cant we order earplugs? Ugh! I miss you sis! I wish we could talk directly. Youre going through so much yourself and I hate seeing the fear in your eyes when you walk downstairs. How are you holding up? In the midst off [sic] all of my grief and horror, youre still on my mind and practically the center of my prayers. What can I do to help you? There are so many unknowns in both of our lives, I dont even know where to start. I hate this place and I dispise [sic] every moment Im here, but I know that I still have a few more months (easily) to deal with all of the B.S. going on outside these protective walls. Well both be home soon, but not before another trial or two in both of our lives. If it wasnt for God, I wouldnt be here. The enemy continues to attack, and I almost give in to my tears and my weakness. You ever thought about just giving up? Yeah, I know you have. Weve talked about it many times. Ive felt that too many times but I thankfully keep coming back to God. I wonder daily how Im going to deal with the next fit of drama, and that stupid cliché runs through my head what doesnt kill me will make me stronger. I hate those words, I truly do. When are we going to sit on the beach, drinking cocktails, and planning our future business? I cant wait for that day, and I know that it will come soon enough. In the mean time pray that I find patience. I love you, sis! Keep your head up and read Job 23. I read it yesterday and your name swept through my mind. HaHa! [End page 252]
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Hello Cookie Dear! : )
Yes, thats your new nickname. Just Cookie is much better than Cookie Monster. Youve called me Muffin. What an attachment to food we both have! Guilty as charged! So I was trying to fall back asleep after breakfast and a book idea came to mind. Im think of a partial memior [sic] / comedy relationship advice for those not in the know. Ill keep praying about it and see how God feels. Its a way to settle many rumors and to share my insights about love, life and most importante [sic] God. Who knows! I got another letter from my friend Ray, the author of the book I let you borrow. He finished his second volume of his memior [sic] Stronger Than Ever and his contract has been extended so that he will be able to write more books, and continue to share his stories. And, his charity(s) are taking shape. Im so happy for his success. God has touched his life in an incredible way, and Im glad that he is able to show how he has grown and perservered [sic] through his faith in our glorious Father. Always good to hear good news! I get to see my Mommy in 2 days!!! Im very excited, but I wish I were able to actually spend time with her while being stuck in court. Either way, God has answered both our prayers and at this point, Ill take 5 minutes in the prescence [sic] of a loved one, over anything else in this world. Even 5 bags of Grandmas cookies. : ) Yes, I know Im a smartass. : ) But ya love me! Thats what sisters are for! [End page 254]
Thanks for your constant advice, encouragement and prayers. Youre always so good at bringing tears to my eye, putting a smile on my face, and peace to my ice-cold heart. Lots of letters of faith, encouragement, and even some laughs today. 28 of 30 were keepers. Not bad at all. Im thankful for 1 positive letter, especially if its from my Cookie or my Momma. Thank you for reaching out to my folks. I know theyll appreciate your kind words and your prayers. Im going to brief my Mom so she knows to expect it. Shes great at sending thank you notes / cards / letters, but I must warn you, if she handwrites it, and gets emotional, you may need a translator. Oh I miss her! Shes down to 118-120, size 4 and hasnt been that tiny since just after I was born. So Im going to tell her to wear something of mine to court on Friday. Lord knows she might be wearing my stuff anyway. Going from an 8-10 to a 4, big change. At least shes eating better and taking better care of herself. Cindy-Lou is a trooper! The boys say she looks great, which is a relief in itself. Shes put her heart in Gods hands, and Hes definitely taking care of her. He is SO GOOD! ♥
Your comment about the stools
HILARIOUS! How did you know I would look? HaHa! Good call! Mine are kind of tannish, with tons of red spots juice stains from setting the untouched juice carton on them. Whoops. Last night I made a little keepsake to [End page 255] take to court with me whenever I have to go. I grabbed one of my favorite pictures of Cays, taped it to a sheet of drawing paper and wrote Isaiah 40:31 on the back. My Mom sent me that scripture weeks back after I had mentioned it to her before. Instant comfort. I saw birds flying around outside the other day and I only wish they were eagles or doves. To have that freedom, to be born to fly. If I could have one super power, thatd be it. What about you? Did you get an update on the Coleman brawl from your Dad? It was on the mens side. 7 went to ORMC, 8 total were injured. Of all the places in the state, thats your best bet, but how glorious would it be if the only place you ended up going was home? I will continue to pray that the only place you will go when you leave these walls is back home to your familia and your casa. And your [sic] darn skippy that well keep in touch! Im with you on the Super Bowl, as far as the Pats are concerned. Funny that the Steelers are considered the underdog this year. Well see how the games goes on Sunday. Im actually indifferent on whether or not I watch probably not. Ill catch bits and pieces via radio if it comes down to it. Im glad Shannons situation didnt get blown to [sic] highly out of proportion. Believe me, I was in tears when you told me. And one thing I hate more than being told what to do, is being repremanded [sic]. Did anyone talk to you about it? Not me. It seems to [End page 256] have been pretty low-key
hopefully. Stupid rats. Its one thing to tattle-tale when its something serious, but whatev. Jerks. Operation black book is going well so far. Lets hope we can keep er quiet. Operation green grasshopper survived a longgggg time. It wasnt until the massacre of Operation stupid teal linguistic book took place that I ever doubted our system. Well keep it sneaky-sneaky and if all else fails Deny, Deny, Deny! God is watching over us, and He found a way to silently, well almost silently, repremand [sic] us for gossiping. One way of looking at it. Have you finished that book yet? Im really looking forward to Rays second. Oh!!! And in that book you gave me last night, I have to show you the author enclosed pictures from growing up, and he looks like someone I know all-too-well. Just wait! I showed Shannon last night and she cracked up! So whether you meant to or not, you brought me one heck of a laugh last night, besides you and your invisible step. : ) I hope you get some quality time out. Even a few minutes are better than nothing! My pen keeps clogging and leaking
grrr. Ill see you shortly! Dinner-time. Uh, yay. [smirky smilie]
♥ ya mah sistah!
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Hey sis! Im glad you had a good visit today. I had a good talk with my boys last night thats when I found out about my Dad, got updates about my Mom (shes doing well) and heard about going to court on Friday. Joy. At least Ill get to see my Momma. Im excited. : )
Did you hear about the riot at Coleman (the prison you were originally supposed to go to)? Boy, what a mess. It was all over the radio yesterday and Im sure it will be again today. Im so thankful that José came through for you and that Mike and Michelle agreed to take your case. Theyre very good friends of mine and theyre working on my case as well. José and Mike go way back they both practiced in Miami before José moved up here. Thats where were hoping to have my trial, for numerous reasons very little media exposure, lots of additional resources, including the Walshs, [sic] and of course, sun and sand. I shaved my arms this morning and dude! I definitely could stand a little bit of color. Yikes! Im not pasty, thank God, but Im still pretty light. Oh well. White girl syndrome. : )
So the Super Bowl is this weekend. Id be more excited if there was a team I actually cared about. Arizona Cardinals and Pittsburg Steelers ugh, right. I told my brother Im expecting an autograph or two. Lucky guy has been out there all month getting things set-up [sic] for his company. Who wouldnt want to be a project manager for the Biggest football game of the year? I sure would. [End page 258. End letter?]
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