sundaaaay
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I spent last night watching Dan and Esther’s videos again..from their 80 day trek this summer. What a cheerful happy couple! What awe-inspiring views from seemingly the top of the world! They are so joyful ...in their element, so far from the troubles of the world below, suffering from a deadly pandemic and crushing lockdowns. Their only concerns seem to be where to place their foot next. The world below does not exist when all one must think about is securing the next safe step on a mountaintop.
But far below those mountain tops, the social and economic ravages of the pandemic are taking a secondary toll. I googled ‘suicide and Covid-19” and found a plethora of articles that were chilling. But, IMO, it appears as long as Esther is moving, high above the worlds problems, she can contain the fears and anxieties that beset her ...hold depression at bay...with the distraction of DAILY “adventure!” Its a “Child at Disneyland Life”IMO.
But she cannot stay up there forever.
“When I drift into seriousness and become goal oriented is when the joy goes and the fears take hold. ‘Esther May 16, 2020
Books being written, lockdown, REAL life. Esther is grounded...but..
But soon, despite lockdowns, they are off on an 80 day trek and Esther seems gleeful again in all their videos. But once home, it doesn’t take long...about three weeks later...
On October 19, Esther posts on her public FB...
Oct 19__’going thru a difficult spell again with some deep self searching needed.” We are not invading her diary here..this is a public post.
She is quoting Alex Boye lyrics..’stretched out like a rubber band, stressed out like a working man All I need is a helping hand. A little care from someone who loves me.” I wonder what was occurring in regard to the publicity that would be coming from the BBC? Was Dan soliciting interviews in order to sell their books? Did it make her feel like “a working man” again? Was it too ‘goal-oriented?’
Two days later, she leaves. Supposedly, just for a few days. Then repeated promises to come home...but she keeps extending. Then she disappears.
IMO...Esther is not living somewhere and making a new life. But IMO she could be one of those individuals whose mental health issues were pushed to the brink due to the pandemic. I think Esther and Dan had a beautiful love story. As much as he could, he enabled her need to be in a mountaintop world of just the two of them. But Covid has overturned everyone’s lives and stretched coping abilities.
Like Esther, I sometimes relate to song lyrics. Watching Esther in the videos, I thought of the lyric from “Starry starry night”...”The world was never meant for one as beautiful as you.”
I agree, covid is seriously problematic for people’s mental health, including myself. The constant negative news, the rules, the no end in sight. It’s like if you already have a bit of a mental health problem it pushes you over the limit.