Well it's obvious you need me to do an intervention on you so sit back and LISTEN to the advice of an old woman ok?
First off, don't give your right arm away or you won't be able to do this: :seeya:
Secondly, it's really only natural to fantasize about a man who is completely inaccessible to you. Travis Alexander has passed away and you don't get to see all of his trivial failings as a human being, which was what he was...a human being.
He was not a saint, or perfect or an angel he was a human being. He had his personality traits as well. We ALL DO.
Now, on to this statement you've made here which I have bolded: "I'm just angry that I'll never get to meet a wonderful man like Travis."
We need to work on your perception as to why you think you will never meet a wonderful man. There ARE wonderful men out there. (And when you find any I want you to call me immediately :floorlaugh
I'm JOKING. But there are wonderful men out there and you are only 33 holy smokes what I would do to go back to my 30's. Heh, heh...I'd be a rich woman.
I've been around the block more times than Girl Scouts selling cookies and I'm here to tell you to GET OFF the dating sites. Go get into life!! Join some kind of club that goes hiking or boating or fishing or something where men with shared interests will be.
Try selling fresh bread at the farmer's market, men LOVE fresh bread.