I agree. My gut has always been that PR seemed like a damaged individual, perhaps bi-polar. Her demeanor immediately after seemed reminiscent of Susan Smith’s. The note’s long rambling detail reminds me of some cases where perps were found to be bi-polar (ala pizza-bomb).
My gut tells me that all of the work and social coordination for Holidays fell on her; pretty stressful and exhausting I reckon. I’d also read that they were working to break a bed-wetting problem with JB and she’d had an accident in the night.
My gut tells me that PR had a ‘falling-down’ moment when she had to change JBRs sheets and PJs, and in utter exhausted frustration, an accident happened. And in panic, PR just had to put something together to hide her having hurt JBR.
Patsy had been under the care of an Atlanta psychiatrist since 1993 I believe. She was having panic attacks which is a known side effect of chemotherapy. I, like most people have no knowledge of what she was like before she came into the public eye with the death of her daughter, so can only base an opinion on what we saw of her in interviews and what others who did know her have said about her.
She did not have a job and from all accounts she loved the Christmas holiday and quite obviously went all out on decorating, etc. Participating in the Homes for the Holidays annual tour where the home is opened up to the public to see all the decorations was something she willingly participated in. Now I'm not saying that all of this wasn't stressful, but she did have help.And she had housekeepers. The bed wetting thing with JBR is an interesting aspect of the story. Both PR and JR majorly downplayed it and PR comes across as fairly nonchalant about it in interviews. One can argue that the reason for this is to squelch the possibility of PR having lost her temper about it that night, which of course many have speculated was the cause of JBR's death. Or it could be that they were so used to it that it just wasn't that big a deal to them. There was a routine when it occurred. PR mentioned it, the housekeeper mentioned it. This tells me two things.....one is that it was a more common occurrence than they wanted to admit, and two, that they were used to dealing with it.
What I find interesting is that both BR and JBR had this problem. BR had grown out of his bedwetting, but JBR had reportedly regressed during PR's bout with cancer and the brutal treatment she went through which kept her away from the family for periods of time. It also has to be noted that BR also had a scatolia issue which was apparently ongoing. Bed wetting is one thing, but the scatolia issue is another level of disturbing. If I had to pick between those two things as to which would send me over the edge, it would be the latter. The issues that both JBR and BR had can be caused by a number of different things, stress & trauma would be two possible causes. Another possible cause is sexual abuse.
Certainly the possibility of PR losing it and causing the accidental death of JBR is a viable conclusion, especially if one believes the bed wetting scenario. But I just don't think PR would have gotten that hysterical over bed wetting. I do tend to think this was an accident that was not meant to happen, but I think it was as a result of something much more serious going on. To me this is evidenced by the details of the cover up, which are pretty gruesome. That child had injuries that to me speak to a much darker and horrific scenario. It's just hard for me to imagine after such an accident occurred, assuming that was the case, that the parent(s) would then concoct such a cover up based upon sexual assault that then required them to digitally penetrate their daughter, garrote and strangle her, etc. It was pretty elaborate which seems absolutely unnecessary and to then try to claim it was the result of an attempted kidnapping. It just doesn't add up for me.