Here is Jodi Arias. She describes her childhood as "ideal," yet drops out of high school, tells a story of her father knocking her into a wall, returns in need not to her mother but to her grandparents' house, and yet has a mother willing to hide evidence, sell Travis-trashing untruths to the National Enquirer, and to meet her in the middle of the night to help her flee justice.
Here is Jodi Arias into adulthood. She's a waitress. She is a waitress latching onto a much older man, with a child, who is her supervisor. Unfortunately for her, he is a man of enough integrity to not sleep with her while he is her supervisor. He demotes himself to waiter to have a relationship with her. She does not object that surely this is not in his best interest. She does nothing to improve herself in the meanwhile. No GED. No working towards any goal, except perhaps holding onto this man who is a ticket
. well, to someplace she does not have to earn herself.
Jodi is not Casey Anthony. She actually works two jobs, both menial, to help pay a mortgage. She is tolerant at least of this man's son, and how central he is to her lover- probably, she thinks, he loves his osn more than her. She sleeps with this man for four long years, but no matter what kind of sex and service she offers up, . he does not want to marry her. She's going nowhere.
Here is Travis Alexander. He describes his childhood as anything but ideal. It is in fact a torture of extreme child neglect,. of starvation on every level, and of watching drug-addicted parents die. Travis's grandparents rescue him, but from then on it is Travis who unceasingly strives against all odds to make a meaningful and worthy life for himself, and who continues to do so up until to day he is murdered.
By his mid-20's, when Jodi the waitress is shacking up with a man decades older and is seemingly friendless, Travis the inspirational speaker has bought an upscale home of his own, has a large circle of extremely close friends and a legion of admirers. He is universally seen as an inspiration, a very generous man, a great friend, funny and warm, and a very moral and observant Mormon.
Tragically for Travis, Jodi enters his orbit because she is looking for a way out. Again a man is Jodi's instant oatmeal choice, her path to something better that she does not have to actually accomplish anything to travel.
Travis, despite being a red-blooded young man, has honored his church and faith and kept his virginity. Shortly after meeting Jodi Arias, who is at least 4 years removed from virginity, he has lost it. Who to this point has demonstrated the most restraint and moral character?
If Jodi is paying attention at all, she knows from the first conversations she has with Travis and his church circle that Travis will never marry her. His religion is hugely important to him, and marrying a non-virgin is not an option. She is not a virgin. Isn't that simple? Not to Jodi. Even after waiting 4 years for a marriage offer that never came from one man, she chooses a man who is even less likely to ever offer her marriage. Either Jodi is deluding herself, or she is setting herself up for the failure that is to follow.
As she did for 4 years with another man, she plies Travis with sex, but he never expresses any desire to marry her, never promises her that he will. From hacking into his emails and whatnot, she knows that he is not only seeing other women, he is asking at least one other, Lisa, to marry him.
How enraging it must have been for Jodi to see the trap she had created for herself. Sex was the only thing she had to offer Travis that the other women he cared for would not give him, but giving him sex was precisely the reason why he would never marry her or, or even, after a short enough time, even feel safe in her company.
I think Travis felt worse about having sex with Jodi than Jodi was ever capable of feeling about the sex she was using to keep Travis from exiting her life altogether.
IMO, Jodi went to Mesa with every intent to kill Travis, but also with a wild desperation to convince him to be hers again-- both playing in her head at the same time. I dont think he knew she was coming. I think she let herself in, hacked his computer, then got into his bed naked.
I think the sex they had that day was likely filled with contempt on his part, and seriously wild and odd on hers. I think she brought photos of their travels together to say to him-- travel is OURS, it is what we have shared.. not you and HER, and before his shower Travis made it plain-- you are not going. She is. I have tried to tell you in every way I know that our relationship is over.
Travis went to the shower. Jodi got dressed and put the gun and knife in her pocket. I think she had both weapons because she did not want to simply kill him, but to make him suffer. For that reason, I dont think it matters whether she shot him first or last. If she shot him first, it was to slow him enough so that she could vent her rage , so that she could stab and slash him full fury without him being able to fight back.
If she shot him last it was because her rage was still not spent after 29 stabs and slitting his throat. The scenarios are equally barbaric, IMO, and both worthy of calling for the death penalty.
Lastly. I think she left the camera in the wash because she thought taking it might implicate her.. Who else would leave that much blood and steal just a camera?
And BTW, Jodi a talented photographer or artist? What cr--p. Her sketches and photos are middling at best.. sometimes adequate on technique, but never original in the least. Jodi doesn't have enough inner self to genuinely create anything--not a painting, not a photo, and certainly not a life.
And let's please pray that JA does get up there....I so want to see JM work his magic. :great: 
