Hi all,
Just a few observations from me. I don't have internet at home so have to rush through all the information so apologies if i am going over old ground.
* if you go to get your gun because you think there is an intruder i'm sure you would have the time to get up close and personal with the person you assume is laying near to that gun to warn them/ask them if they heard something. That would be the time to whisper to them, not when you are half way down the hall. Still struggling with the fact OP claims to not know his GF is in the room with him.
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* when scared/threatened the first thing i think most would do would be seek reassurance/opinion/guidance of a loved one in the same room.
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* if OP is very unstable on his stumps i would assume he would have the time to put on his legs just as he had time to grab his gun (i assume he had to walk to the side of the bed), or else he would feel vulnerable. If you feel vulnerable you do what you can to feel less vulnerable. Vulnerable enough to grab your gun, vulnerable enough to put on your legs.
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* I get that fear can make people irrational, but if you have a gun you have the upper hand. You don't need to be in close contact to fire a gun, especially if you are competent at it. You can wait to see who you are shooting at. If i was un armed and someone was climbing into my house i would hit them to kill because i'd need to be in close contact to protect myself and my kids...if i had a gun i'd have the luxury of standing back and waiting, warning them, GTFO or you are dead. Not the same as if you are in close, personal contact with an intruder and have to fight to survive.
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* Surely the poor girl screamed.
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* I am a hot head, when i crack i crack and i am always sorry afterwards and wish i handled it better. I have never been violent but i yell, yell, yell so i can understand that when you go into a rage it makes you do things (or in my case say things) that you regret with all your heart. I don't think OP wanted Reeva dead and i believe he is very remorseful, but i think rage took over and in the heat of the moment he didn't care about consequences.
I would tend to agree
Very tragic indeed.