Theories then. About what would make her like this/do this. Initially I thought it was some kind of madness due to being in a secret relationship with a married man, obsession with his wife, lack of self esteem, wanting his attention. But as someone pointed out, she was already killing before he arrived at the hospital (unless she already knew him before?). Also what she did was so foul and extreme that it goes way beyond "bunny boiler" behaviour.
Reports say there was nothing unusual about her background. But I saw her Mother was a GP. That reminded me of the Doctor Foster programme. Dr Foster (a GP in the series) was very very busy working all the time, and caught up in her job, and not around so much for a growing child. GP's have very intense jobs, on call and work a lot. Presumably LL's Father also worked. Perhaps she was left to her own devices a lot and ended up in a little world of her own. Then also maybe the business of her feeling superior - her Mother was a Doctor, - she was "only" a nurse - maybe a chip on her shoulder at "not being good enough" (which I think one of her notes said). Why didn't she train to be a Doctor instead? Doctors often run in families - Mum or Dad was a Doctor, child trains to be a Doctor. Maybe she didn't make the grade academically. Maybe, despite her normal looking background, her parents were not so kind about her achievements, thought she was a bit of a dunce or something. Maybe she felt like a disappointment and had conflicted feelings of inadequacy and wanting to feel more powerful and important - like her Mother - the GP. Maybe she wanted to marry a Doctor - but he was unavailable and that also made her feel inadequate.
She didn't seem to break away from her parents as an adult either. Going on holiday with them regularly (not many over 18 year olds want to holiday with parents), they helped her buy a house. She didn't seem to have any adult relationships, it seems, until this alleged affair with the Doctor at the hospital. So she seemed a bit of a loner. A dark horse.
However none of this explains why she would turn to killing neonatal babies. Unless she had got pregnant and had an abortion secretly maybe, and had some kind of psychosis and couldn't handle working with all the babies (not making any excuses for her). And why would that need to be secret anyway? Girls do get pregnant and have abortions. Unless the married Doctor convinced her it couldn't happen and had to be secret or it could affect his children if it ever came out.
Someone earlier mentioned the two books by her bedside. 1) A Doctor's memoir about being dangerously ill after a miscarriage 2) A novel about a young woman who had an affair with a married man ("Never Greener" - I'm going to take a look at that!). Not exactly light or fun reading. An obsession with miscarriage, near death and affairs? Or secretly having gone through something like that herself.
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All JMO MOO. And still doesn't really explain, whatever her state of mind and upbringing, how someone could use their medical knowledge to cause harm. And how she seemed perfectly normal and happy to her friends.
Unless she was just born like that - as some people are - with psycopathic tendencies.
Another thing - why did it only start in 2015? Presumably it was when she first started working on a neonatal unit. And what happened between 2017 and it coming to trial? What did she do, what was her behaviour during this time? If she was addicted to killing and had been removed from the neonatal unit - how did she not have this urge diverted elsewhere?
Reports say there was nothing unusual about her background. But I saw her Mother was a GP. That reminded me of the Doctor Foster programme. Dr Foster (a GP in the series) was very very busy working all the time, and caught up in her job, and not around so much for a growing child. GP's have very intense jobs, on call and work a lot. Presumably LL's Father also worked. Perhaps she was left to her own devices a lot and ended up in a little world of her own. Then also maybe the business of her feeling superior - her Mother was a Doctor, - she was "only" a nurse - maybe a chip on her shoulder at "not being good enough" (which I think one of her notes said). Why didn't she train to be a Doctor instead? Doctors often run in families - Mum or Dad was a Doctor, child trains to be a Doctor. Maybe she didn't make the grade academically. Maybe, despite her normal looking background, her parents were not so kind about her achievements, thought she was a bit of a dunce or something. Maybe she felt like a disappointment and had conflicted feelings of inadequacy and wanting to feel more powerful and important - like her Mother - the GP. Maybe she wanted to marry a Doctor - but he was unavailable and that also made her feel inadequate.
She didn't seem to break away from her parents as an adult either. Going on holiday with them regularly (not many over 18 year olds want to holiday with parents), they helped her buy a house. She didn't seem to have any adult relationships, it seems, until this alleged affair with the Doctor at the hospital. So she seemed a bit of a loner. A dark horse.
However none of this explains why she would turn to killing neonatal babies. Unless she had got pregnant and had an abortion secretly maybe, and had some kind of psychosis and couldn't handle working with all the babies (not making any excuses for her). And why would that need to be secret anyway? Girls do get pregnant and have abortions. Unless the married Doctor convinced her it couldn't happen and had to be secret or it could affect his children if it ever came out.
Someone earlier mentioned the two books by her bedside. 1) A Doctor's memoir about being dangerously ill after a miscarriage 2) A novel about a young woman who had an affair with a married man ("Never Greener" - I'm going to take a look at that!). Not exactly light or fun reading. An obsession with miscarriage, near death and affairs? Or secretly having gone through something like that herself.
Inside Lucy Letby’s bedroom where evil nurse red novels on bed with teddies
A CHILLING look inside Lucy Letby’s bedroom reveals the evil nurse read romance novels on her bed covered with teddy bears and wore a fluffy pink dressing gown. Letby, 33, was found guilty on…
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All JMO MOO. And still doesn't really explain, whatever her state of mind and upbringing, how someone could use their medical knowledge to cause harm. And how she seemed perfectly normal and happy to her friends.
Unless she was just born like that - as some people are - with psycopathic tendencies.
Another thing - why did it only start in 2015? Presumably it was when she first started working on a neonatal unit. And what happened between 2017 and it coming to trial? What did she do, what was her behaviour during this time? If she was addicted to killing and had been removed from the neonatal unit - how did she not have this urge diverted elsewhere?
