About the "supposed" ripped out pages:
Someone wrote it wouldn't fit in with her neat personality, but I'm neat too

and I have done this many times. I used to write a lot, then I got busy, but would sometimes have the urge to write, just to get whatever it was out of me.
I'd just take any old notebook or diary with empty pages to write it down. I've ripped old pages out. It wasn't for anyone else's viewing, just for myself to get it out.
However, putting - things in front of some sentences mean to me she was quoting someone else/ a magazine article or whatever. But only because I used to do that myself.
Just my opinion based on my own experience: )