Thank you - that helps a lot. What do you think makes him different from others who would go through all of this but the result is simply leaving their family versus actually murdering? Did he ever see them as something with a life outside his? Or were they prized objects like a vintage car he could dispose of when no longer adored?
My unprofessional theory is because he came from intense dysfunction. That’s my guess. Because someone raised by a narcissist parent is enmeshed with that parent. They don’t learn boundaries. And because they always have to echo the narcissistic parent’s feelings, some can have a lot of problems forming both an identity and stable attachments.
So I think he felt his family were really just extensions of himself. And since he didn’t really exist, because his identity had already been annihilated by his parents, his kids didn’t really exist. So he could annihilate them fairly easily. Problems with stable attachment probably made that easy as well.
But keep in mind, this is all amateur opinion on my part based on researching these dudes, and personality disorders and having some firsthand experience with the repercussions and manifestation of personality disorders (from my mother in law and clients or opposing parties).
I wish our psych experts would make an appearance.
In the meantime, to add, the above is how he was able to kill. But why he chose to instead of leaving like so many others do, I really think he got rid of them it’s because NK made it clear that a divorce wasn’t good enough for this guy.
Based on her text messages to him, his comments and text messages to her friend and her friend’s comments to LE, as well as her behavior and demeanor (fake praise of the girls as adorable and cute, lying about thinking it was cute that he was a dad and fake sadness about their deaths) I think NK was the type who was putting him in an impossible position. She resented that he already had kids. She at least wanted to give him his first son. My feeling is she is a deeply insecure narcissist herself so instead of just going, “Nah. I’ll pass on the family man”, I believe she pursued him knowing he was married with kids, because the challenge fed her ego, and then likely punished him for having kids and a wife, with sullenness, pouting, withdrawing, petulantly imploring him to go back to his wife and veiled threats that she would not be able to commit to a guy with kids.
I think she likely would’ve stayed with him but wanted constant reassurances that she was the most important thing in his life. So sort of a push pull thing with him. “Oh, lets go apartment hunting so we can find you a place for your girls!” Then later, quietly acting distant. “What’s wrong?” “I always wanted the guy I ended up with to have his first kids with me. Not with someone else. I just don’t know if I can do this. I want to be important and it seems you are too busy to really be there with me.”
Then of course he would desperately try to convince her she was the most important thing and hearing that from a married man with a beautiful wife and adorable kids would be intoxicatingly ego-filling for someone like her.
Some women assuage their insecurities by taking someone else’s spouse because it shows they’re so special a guy would choose her over the full family life he had.
As an aside I think had she stayed with him she would have been a terrible stepmother and would likely have fought with Shanann. She would have at first been charming with the kids but then would be sullen and inflexible and would not be able to be affectionate to what she would probably feel are interlopers in HER life.
I think she communicated some of this to CW in her attitude and behaviors and he felt if she knew his wife was pregnant it would be over.
So his desperation to keep her made him get rid of the family she already resented.
That’s my instinct about why.