Gardener1850
Timeline Guru (Still Remembering Cupcake)
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I'm feeling so sad and conflicted today. Some friends of mine celebrated their daughter's birthday this week. What did the birthday girl get to do? She had a party with 9 other friends her age and then got to go clothes shopping at multiple stores that just re-opened in their area. No masks and no social distancing in any of the festivities. The party was outside and they had cupcakes but the pictures showed the kids sitting right next to each other in the grass, knees touching while eating their cupcakes. And the birthday girl tried on tons of clothes at a busy store with no masks seen in any of the photos. And I know these friends of mine have masks to wear because I've seen photos of their masks and masks for their children too. They were so careful in the beginning. Why are they suddenly acting as if the virus is gone? I wanted to celebrate that they got to have a "normal" party but I just couldn't bring myself to feel any joy for them. I only feel foreboding and sadness. They have been unemployed throughout this-- how will they pay their hospital bills if they or their children get sick? Or worse, how will they feel if they get it and pass it on to their elderly parents/grandparents and someone they love dies? I wanted to shout "What are you thinking, we're in the middle of a pandemic!?!" I restrained myself and simply gave a half-hearted, "How sweet she had a fun day, tell 

happy birthday from us..." And that was the end of the conversation. Maybe I'm the crazy one to still social distance and wear a mask to the store? I dread every grocery trip because of people like my friends who are acting irresponsibly in public. I've been convinced by the data so far that this virus is a death sentence for me if I get it. I'm no spring chicken, but I'm too young to die. I have a lot I still want to accomplish in this life. I have a lot to live for. Also I don't want to lose my parents, my in-laws, my many vulnerable friends and family members to this horrible virus all in one year. They all still have a lot to live for too. I'm sitting here crying now. Maybe I'm the crazy one though... Maybe the predictions of a second wave with higher death tolls are wrong? It seems like we never even got out of the first wave before things opened back up. MOO.












