I made a post on another board about another child tonight, and it made me realize something about myself. I am a wimp. I truly am. I started out so hopeful for the safe return return of little Adji. I wouldn't let myself consider any other outcome. Over time, that optimism waned, and I still tried to hang onto it. I have to admit now, that I gave up. I still went through the motions of reading this board everyday, and searching the internet everyday for news, but in my heart, I really gave up. How would I feel if it were my child and I heard that from someone. Of course I would be furious. I would like to just express my admiration for all of those on this board who have continued to not only just read this board, but to post, and put forth useful ideas. You are the angels that make this world a beautiful place. I am going to try to get myself back on track. THanks for your hard work. Bless you all...Jennifer