(It's 5am here...no lunesta? Or are you just waking up? :heart: )
(All nighter here,
fftobed: TGIS )
Thats funny , just waking up. Its easier to stay caught up if I see what is happening and what my fellow WS ers have been thinking while I was Lunesta ing away. INteresting that you mention it however, I rarely do that but I had to take a chip of one pill after the regular dose - just was not happening
Not trying to be gross but from statements yesterday:
I could stop ruminating about what it must have reallybeen in like there and for some reason it was more intense -- like notions of the reality was. It was more like auditory and olfactory.
Just the smells had to be gruesome - the one guy who said the smell of the drying blood was horrible was hideous. They took out a AC unit had to grueling heat, sweat, some other body functions that happen when one passes, and the smell of gun powder.
Catching on to the reality, those KIDS in the bathroom watched people slowly die, while sitting cramped with corpses.
Do not remember the exact number (it was the guy who took the inside bathroom video) it was like there 17 in there, and only 5 survived. I think watching 12 people die over a three hour peroid has got to hideous
It was a bar, there was drinking, can you imagine what that would be like to be drunk, had no food , in may instances no water and going through all this.
Bleeding results in great thirst.
I think another statement yesterday , from a cop who first went in after he was dead, impacted me intensily ....when he walked in he thought a lot of people were playing dead, or shot but still alive, He said loudly like "its OK its over lets get you out". He waited Said it again. THen he said it took him a bit to realize that noone responded becausw noone remained alive.
Its just not that big a place . Nine died afterwards, so that means that he was looking at 40 deceased young people. I am not "angry" at LE. But the reality here has got to be that if he did not do that hostage cr(p, there would have been a lot less fatilities. When I went down there the hospital was super close.
There was creepy stuff. he said it was like time had instantly stopped. You could see tabs with money on them. Apparently a staff member (I assume) was eating - half a sandwhich sitting on bar. Broken booze bottles. . A round of drinks that looked as if they had just been made and left there. I got an image of a cash register open.
Half finished drinks, glasses smashed on the floor, cell phones going nuts, (that sounds horrible - but think of all the crazy different ring tones- (had to be just a chaotic "sound") the little disco ball was still going, there was a tv running, holes in the walls,from the breaches bathroom tiles all over the place, glass everywhere,some light here and there. A water pipe burst during the breach. The mess from that .....
And that triggered this:
The stop in time notion, is exactly what I experined when Vice aired like a 34 minute unedited video of MH17. Took my breath away. Because they fell from the air, a lot of them were intact, not very bloody.
The looked like "frozen " people.
It looked like still photos on video. Think about that for a second. It was unreal
Everyone of them had a facial expression frozen. In some instances it was like hands cluched. Some wide eyed. Some like ka plumb face down and arms and legs out. Some still in seats with the chair legs on them . Some seats had like oxygen masks, electrical wiring all over the place. One in a seat had his arm in the air. Lots of bruising.
I remember thinking (this sounds really weird) this would be different if they were all like Ameircan - just becasue Malaysians have some different facial features where the facial expressions would , I think, been more "understandable", if that makes sense.
Until that moment my notion was just like body parts. It was very shocking cause it was not like that at all. Clusters of people that were like in all sorts of postions, all over, and under, and sideways on each other. Some far away and alone out is a field . Some in the clusters were face up, some face down, some sideways. A "mound" of people if you will..
Extremities were in contorted and flat bizaire postions.
It was a rough attempt to sleep...................
I got the camera cord yesterday, but was emotionally unavailable to see if I could get some of the pics on here for you guys. Will try today.
