(SBM) ...one of the videos the suspect posted the day after Ryan was found.
Wow. The title of that video:
"stalkers hacked my phone to try to make me mad trying to get me to attack boy"
So I dove into that rabbit hole that is his yt for about an hour and I feel like... well i guess I am not sure how to articulate how I feel?
Just... How devastatingly sad for everyone involved.
Ugh Im conflicted, because after watching about a dozen of his videos, it's hard for me to not have compassion for this human being who is so very obviously mentally ill, literally living in delusional reality. I just feel so much sorrow for him.
At the same time, i feel like i shouldn't feel that way because he killed a beautiful, innocent child who had so much to look forward to in life, and who had nothing to do with anything.
I am trying to make sense of it all but I think there is no sense to be made. I'll just sit here with my conflicting feelings and go hug my children a little tighter.

MOO