I watched a clip from the doc that startled me a bit. It was when KR stated something to the effect of being "over it now" and just looking to save herself. At first, I was like wow...that makes her look cold. But then I thought about it from a perspective of an innocent person.
So my boyfriend has been stringing me along while I'm the babysitter with benefits. He criticizes me for spoiling his kids and how I discipline them, yet still continues to leave them in my care, while sleeping with me at night. His family and friends hate me. I am even looking at other guys at this point, because it seems as though my relationship is about to end soon. I beg him to just let me go if that's the case, yet he keeps coming back. This push and pull has been going on for 2 years and at this point, I'm pretty tired of it. I love him, but I am not happy.
I decide to go ahead and meet up with him as "I'm his ride" for the night. I am uncomfortable around his friends, so I drink more than I probably should. I'm trying to have a good time. But it gets to be around midnight and it's time to go home. Bar is closing. I can't wait to get to John's house after a long day and go to sleep. But upon leaving, he insists on going to an afterparty. I really don't want to go and really don't think I'm invited. He goes in the house and goes dark. Won't text or call back, so I leave, really angry at this point and wondering all sorts of crazy things about what is happening in that house.
I get home, promptly pass out and wake up a few hours later, still in a fog and he's not home. I can't even remember what happened. I frantically call around and search for him and yes, I'm wondering like crazy, could I have him him, especially after finding his body on the grass at 34F. I go crazy and am admitted to the hospital, where no one will speak to me. My boyfriend, who I loved as much as I was annoyed with, is now dead, I am given the cold shoulder by his family and friends, so I call my parents and get the heck out of there. Then everyone spends 3 years calling me a murderer. I get my trial and 2 of my 3 charges were voted to acquit, yet they decide to pursue all 3 again! I'm broke. I have no job. I'm hated by as many as I am loved by.
So yeah, at this point, I'm done with the whole thing. I need to save my own life now.