Hey Riot, Welcome -- it is really nice to see some fresh perspective on this thread.
I think that she probably did have some sort of substance abuse problem -- whether it was food or alcohol or something else -- I can't as easily write off the credit card charges for food, or the reports that she drank Bailey's in her coffee, or her being asked to leave West Point. That being said, I'm not sure it's anything more than a minor contributing factor to her overall state of mind. I think that her overall state of mind put her in the situation she was in -- on a lonely road in winter in a rickety car with no one, or at least no one we know of, aware of her whereabouts, and then an accident.
In any event, what I'm wondering is what you make of the reported state of her room -- completely packed up. Do you buy the idea that she just hadn't unpacked yet? Do you think she had packed up everything? If she had packed, then, do you think she was dropping out? It's the one piece that I think is really strange about the case. Were it me, it would be easily explained by my not unpacking yet because I was too busy (I've done that before after moving -- pulling just a few essentials out and leaving the boxes until I had more time), but I've never seen it confirmed that students have to remove their things from their room over winter break. I went to one of the other five colleges before transferring to a different school my second year, and my recollection was that we did not have to remove our things between first and second semester, unless we were switching rooms.
-SG
Hi SG!
Personally, I do buy that she hadn't unpacked yet. Now, I'm a guy, so I can see how Maura may not act exactly like I do, but this past summer I moved to house-sit a place for weekdays while I worked at an internship. When I was there for 2/2.5 months, the only thing I unpacked was dishes. I'm a mess, so you could see clothes move from suitcase to laundry basket, but when I went home for the week, I'm almost certain you'd think I was packed up to move. The dorm situation is a little different, but I've read that Maura was a clean person, so I definitely see her being too busy to unpack and just tidying up before she left in case an RA or some one came into her room to check on something. If I wasn't living with my SO right now, I'd still be living out of a suitcase. Now, you might ask, "Why the printed out emails left on top of everything?" I completely agree that she was working through some issues. If I were in a similar place, I could see myself printing out the emails to have something tangible to focus on. This might not be the case with MM, but I can see it as a distinct possibility. I have not been able to find information that a UMass dorm room needs to be completely vacated, just that you can't live there over the break. Plausible explanation 1: MM was worried about her stuff getting stolen over break. Plausible explanation 2: MM didn't keep a lot of stuff in her dorm room. Good question to ask: Do we know for certain that MM didn't change rooms between Fall 2003 and Spring 2004? (Are singles always available for juniors? I don't know, but I know who to ask.)
In regards to taking an unsafe car, I'm of the same mindset as McSpy: caution to the wind. When I was about her age, I drove a car that I was in a major accident with for 3 years without getting it properly repaired. I finally had to get rid of it because my parents "borrowed" it and took it to a mechanic, who basically declared it a deathtrap. I can see MM needing to get away and taking the most readily available mode of transportation. Devil's advocate: If she were, say, planning to commit suicide in a meaningful location, wouldn't she pick a more reliable way to get there? I don't see how the unreliable car plays into any scenario more than another. All I feel we can take from the fact that she took her own car is that she really felt like she needed to get away.
It can be dangerous to attribute one's own actions and values to others, but I think that it is useful when determining plausibility of actions, just not probability.
As for the "Bailey's in her coffee" comment, all we know is that she
enjoyed an Irish coffee, which is not the same thing as
requiring an Irish coffee. (Though, as far as I know, we have no indication how far toward the "requiring" end of the spectrum she was.)