Ah, sorry. I'm doing 20 things at once today.
Thanks too, for.... yeah.
It's part of why I feel so guilty about this. My gut told me my Granddaughter was not safe, and I let people, professionals, friends, family, the person responsible (not intentionally, thankfully) tell me I was being reactionary, I was worrying too much, yadda yadda. I didn't want to rush to judgement, and wanted to support the other person, not hurt them. And she's gone. Of course you can never help but wonder, what if I had pushed harder, fought harder....? I think that's why I can't take watching DY. I think I know all too well what's going through her head, and I would give anything to tell her that I think she's a wonderful Mother, and to stop blaming herself.
I went through this with my health issues too, and my cancer was misdiagnosed for 5 years. I keep telling myself I'm never going to let anyone make me doubt what my gut says anymore, but I have brain issues due to the autoimmune stuff, and I don't trust my own memories. I'm always sure I'm wrong, and have to piece things together.
I need to learn to trust myself. It's one thing when it affects my life, it's harder to accept if it harmed Kyron.
Again, just want him to come home.
Sorry. Back on topic. Just thought it was a good time to connect some dots... My mind goes back a lot to my GD, and "what if".
I hope this search is something promising. It probably means I'm wrong, but I hope they just find him alive, today. I pray, so much for that moment.... I have the kleenex ready.