On their rare nights out in public, Cosby treats his wife with the adoration of a nerdy schoolboy who cannot believe he landed the prom queen. He admits, however, that their life together was not always the stuff of warm situation comedy. About eight years ago, he says, "if somebody had made me choose between my career and my family, I probably would have let the family go."
He took his family for granted, Cosby says, and this attitude led to "selfish behavior" that he will not describe, except to say that it was particularly hurtful to his wife. Speaking cautiously in the second person, with uncharacteristic somberness, he says, "When you're younger, you want to be sure that by the time you're 80 years old you can sit on the bench and look back and say, 'Man, I did it all. I didn't miss a thing.' What you never meant to do was to hurt anyone, but then you see the look on the face of the person you didn't mean to hurt, and then you realize that what you stand to lose is worth so much more . . ." He pauses. "I just asked my wife and my kids to forgive me, and ever since then, they've been a part of everything I do."
Since then, Cosby has worn a silver bracelet that he bought for himself inscribed CAMILLE'S HUSBAND. It matches the silver Rolex he wears on his left wrist and the stopwatch he always takes to the track.