Day 828 – Number of days Jodi has spent in solitary confinement
Regardless
"Reports whether accurate or not, indicates Jodi may very well have been afforded some privileges and opportunity to step outside her dungeonous cell. However, if true, it still means she spends over 16 hours per day still confined to a cell no larger than a compact automobile, totally and utterly and desperately alone.
Reports also indicate she's adapting quite well and basks in the glory of emerging from the coffin where she has spent over 828 days. Who wouldn’t? I can’t help reflecting on the fact that this will be very short lived. Just like when you go on vacation, while you love the surf and turf, after a few days or weeks, you are ready to go home and get on with your normal life, see your friends and family, sleep in your comfy bed and awake in familiar surroundings where you are free to come and go as you please. Thus, it will be for Jodi. The newness and excitement of changes in circumstance will wane quickly and become another stark reminder that those cold prison walls will forever be her existence and she will never, ever go home.
Those in rehab or attending AA meetings , consider those days newly sober as living under a “pink cloud”. Ie: it is exciting in the beginning, but the “high” is short lived. When the adrenaline evaporates as it will, this is a prime time for relapse. When clearer heads prevail, the past come rushing in like a freight train. Deep depression sets in and the pink cloud becomes a thunderstorm and floods your emotions with drenching remorse and helplessness.
I suspect, that is exactly what will happen to Jodi or anyone serving a prison sentence, particularly a long one or one for the rest of your time on earth. The harsh reality will set in moreso than even before. They will see ppl come and go and they will swiftly realize that will never be their reality. Being Jodi is incessantly jealous of other women, to know some will fare better than her will “chap her



” and consume her very being.
So, the morale of this story is: More privileges means that one will quickly learn that this is all there is, and there is no more. "All hope evaporates like the rain when the sun comes out. ”
So, if this is any consolation to those who may initially be dismayed that she gets any privileges, obviously not to walk free but at least walk feet from total isolation, please know this. There really is no true honeymoon or wedded bliss. She will never say “yes to a wedding dress or really any dress, she will not be enveloped by an adoring groom surrounded by finery and the good will of friends and family.
There will be no precious flower girls sprinkling rose petals awaiting your grand entrance. No ring bearer to deliver an eternity ring of certainly, or being whisked away after the rice is thrown to an island paradise. There will be no happily ever after, complete with friends and family love or possibility of children and grandchildren to cherish and take care of you in later life. There will be no birthday parties, fulfilling jobs, Christmas, Easter Egg Hunts and welcoming the New year with resolution. When she chose to rush the until death do you part, she guaranteed herself that a good life is a distant and yes horrifying and painful memory and will never ever happen..
Welcome Jodi to the rest of your life!"
‪#‎sweet‬!