Journal for June 1, AFTER 3 phone interviews with Flores, last one on June 28. Entry is from Juror 13's site.
6/1/08:
Just getting ready for the road, mostly. Ill be leaving in a few hours, even though I havent slept. If I get sleepy, Ill just pull over. So Ive revised my itinerary a bit. Im definitely going to stop & see Jack & Darryl in P.G. I miss those guys. Depending on Matts schedule, Ill visit w/him for a bit, but Im definitely crashing at his place, just for one night probably. Then Ill head south. If Laura allows it, Ill visit her, Tazannah & Z, and take some cool pics. (Wow, I just wrote pics instead of pictures. Its a text-messaging syndrome, I guess). And Id like to go to SD to visit Jon Dixon. Hes got a lot of cool stuff going on there & we get along really well. I know he likes me, and if he were a church member, there would definitely be potential, because I like him, too. I especially like his enthusiasm and never-ending zest for life. He always seems so easy-going & happy. And hes handsome. A little more petite than I prefer as far as build, but thats easily over-looked.
Anyway, Ive yet to call him either, although I know that if I just showed up in town, hed make room in his schedule for me

Hes a wonderful person. Travis thinks hes the Anti-Christ because he left Pre-Paid for YTB. I think it was a dumb decision for sure, but not worth persecuting someone over. Free enterprise is the name of the game in America. I love it.
Anyway, after SD, Ill drive to UT. Im not sure what well be doing there, but cuddling is definitely on the list. So is a massage. Maybe a nap. Some dinner. Im not too concerned w/what we do, as long as its w/him, so that we can get to know each other a little better at least. Maybe that will help to shed a little light on this somewhat intriguing situation.
I mentioned my road trip to Travis. He didnt sound all that thrilled for me. As far as I know, he knows nothing of Ryan. I asked Zion not to mention it to him, so that I wouldnt have to explain anything or hurt him further. It would only be a repeat of our last blow-up and I know he hurts, and I dont want him to hurt.
Its so confusing because I know he likes Mimi a lot and I now know that he was dating Lisa the whole time, but yet he was angry & hurt & devastated when I told him about Jon Dixon last August/Sept (I think it was early Sept. Definitely before the Vegas convention.) Its been such a grey area for me because we broke up but continued seeing each other on the D.L. We were clearly not an item, not dating, not bf/gf, so its not like I cheated on him.
I really shouldnt have mentioned it to him. He told me that Ive hurt him more than the death of his father hurt him. That is so heavy. My heart aches because he hurts. I care for him very much. I just want him to find happiness.
I shouldve known better than to tell him about Jon Dixon but he asked SPECIFICALLY in two different ways You swear you havent kissed anyone since me? And Tell me the truth, did you ever kiss Jon Dixon? I dont know why he wants to know so bad. He tortures himself. I said I thought we agreed we wouldnt discuss this topic. But he persisted the way he always does. He baited, too, by saying it doesnt matter now, I can tell him. So duh, Jodi. I told him. I didnt tell him all of the details, but he could immediately tell I was trying to filter it.
He was way upset. We hung up. I called back, upset myself, and said its all in the past, and he was half asleep by then, and his demeanor had turned soft and said its ok, it just stems from the fact that he is lonely. When he pulled the lonely card again, it brought tears to my eyes. He deserves a happy & fulfilling relationship just as much as I do. I dont want him to be lonely. To think that at one time we couldve been married seems so far from what is now. At least hes found his the one!!! Thats more than I can say. And although all of that is true, we still fight feelings for each other?
He told me via gmail chat that he still fights feelings for me everyday. I was a little surprised to learn that. I know that he cared for me and all. Honestly, Ive been largely ignoring any feelings that creep up up, usually by just distracting myself.
The prospects of new beginnings on the horizon promise light again at the end of the tunnel, a short tunnel as Ive made this journey more than twice before & each time, the tunnel is a little bit shorter, each time, Im always a little bit stronger. I love Travis & always will. We are just different. His fiery temper doesnt mix w/my tendency to cry at the drop of a hat, over spilled milk, or whatever.
Anyway, huge disgression so mums the word on Mr. Ryan Burns, although Travis jokingly insinuated that I was certainly making a trip out to UT for a reason. He said, Uh-huh, yeah, sure, I bet. etc. Hes not dumb and wont be able to pull it over his eyes for long if things progress. But thats ok.
Maybe if he hears it through the grapevine, hell have even more incentive to walk toward getting his marriage on. Which would mean no more messing around, being naughty w/me or whoever else he might be doing his thing with.
He also began to sweet talk / guilt me that I was making the road trip to UT to visit friends, etc. & when I could instead come out to AZ & see him. He actually made me regret my itinerary for a few moments. He is incredibly persuasive. But I stood my ground! Honestly if it werent for the prospect of hanging out with Ryan and getting to know him better, I would have been weak & folded I would have cancelled my plans to Utah entirely & driven down to is house. He actually a little bit hurt & upset that I didnt change my mind 
I gently declined, gently refused, but I could tell he was bothered. I reminded him that hes going to be here soon anyways. I played up all of the fun things that were going to experience. I just got a few --yeah, buts
. and eventually an ok, whatever. Hes stubborn
So am I, really. But its already. I have a few more things to do & then Im hitting the road. To Redding, where Ill leave my car, then onward.
Pre-arrest- Yreka, July, interrogations
JA: Heres why I felt guilty. One of the last times we spoke, he was guilting me about not coming to see him, and part of my heart still wanted to go see him and another part just wants to move on, and pursue this new avenue, which was in Utah, and there is a tinge of guilt, you know
Later....
FO: Was he expecting you to come over that day?
JA: He wanted me to. I told him I wasnt going to.
FO: So was it a surprise that you actually showed up?
FO: I was just going to ask you if he was happy to see you that week that day?
(Silence)
FO: That looked like youre saying, Yeah, he was.
JA: (Jodi throws used toilet paper in trash can behind her) No, I didnt say that.
JA: He was always happy to see me, though. Im trying to think
FO: Were you happy to see him?
(Silence)
FO: You at least know that.
(Jodi wipes her nose)
Before arrest, both detectives
JA: Do you know what happened to my journals, too?
JA: I know they said they took one, but I dont know if they took my other ones.
FO: Where were your other ones at?
JA: In my fireproof safe.
JA: Umm
if you want my journals it documents the entire time starting from when I moved to Arizona up until 2 or 3 days ago.
JA: I dont know if they felt it was relevant, but
JA: Im sure theres
Travis got a lot of ink in my journals. I dont know. That doesnt matter now because I know you guys think what you think but umm...
To Flores...
JA: Did you also take my journals?
DF: Yes.
JA: All three of them?
Post arrest, with Flores, the ninja story unfolds afterwards...
Killer: Umm
so I just, I had a wall charger, I think, and I was just going to charge it later, I guess, when I got somewhere. Anyway, I did call Travis, and I said, Guess what? and he said, What? and I said, Im coming to Arizona tonight, and there was silence, and then he goes, Really? and I said, Yeah and he said, What made you change your mind? and I just said, I just
cause I told him I missed him or something, but I would have said because you are too compelling, but like he is too, hes already got a big enough head about that stuff.
So I showed up, and he was looking at You Tube on his computer, on his laptop, in the office.......