Im not sure what compells me to share my opinions here but I've been reading quite a lot about this story and i have gone through all the various opinions here and on other websites and though there seems to be so much sensationalism theres also quite a lot of people who just like me find the whole thing odd
Being Canadian and living in Vancouver myself, when this story first came to light i remember how odd the whole story was, in Canada we very rarely get news stories like this so it was closely watched and reported particularly the news in British Columbia focused a lot on her disappearance and when they found her body.
I noticed in one of the posts here someone mentioning that it would be good to have someone with bipolar



their thoughts so I id like to share some of my personal experiences with bipolar and psychotic episodes and maybe that can shed some light on the elevator video and if she did commit suicide.
First of all, i have had three psychotic episodes in my life, the first two i was never diagnosed with anything but severe depression and subsequently put on medication with no other therapy.
Following my last and most severe psychotic episode i was diagnosed bipolar, what happens with me is that my anxiety goes crazy to the point my mind cannot decipher from reality and my imagination or what i am fearing and having anxiety about, in other words what i am experiencing in my imagination is real to me and nothing can get me out of it.
My last psychotic episode was three years ago, i was not taking any medication prior. It began with a bout of anxiety and rapidly progressed to the point i was out walking around the city at all hours in search of something imaginable and at home i would be scared for my life not sleeping staring out a window and holding a knife thinking someone was coming to kill me.The fear i was having got the point it engulfed my entire thoughts BUT i was also quite functional and very aware what i was doing. I did know i was being crazy but i just couldn't stop myself.
Had i not received treatment when i did i know for certain that i would have done something to hurt myself.
In regards to the video they have of her in the hotel, the first time i watched it i did find her behaviour odd too but after several viewings i do not see anything weird about it except to me when she appears to show some anxiety.
I don't get the impression she was afraid or being followed in her body language i get that she was having a normal reaction to an elevator not working properly. if i was in a hotel late at night and trying to use an elevator and the doors weren't closing i think i would be a bit weirded out just from my anxiety.
But from what i get from the video it seems like the elevator just wasn't working, she exits a few times waiting for the doors to close and seems to be wondering why its not working, then she finally leaves maybe to take the stairs.
Her movements seem normal to me as for someone being on meds, I recall one time being in the hospital and seeing other psych patients walking and holding onto the walls to keep themselves from falling over.
For me personally on medication i recall a few times not being able to stand and feeling very dissociated with my surroundings. that alone may be a factor in her slow or weird/unbalanced movements at times, in fact she seemed quite normal to me for someone being on meds.
So in saying that the one thing i find strange is why was she on that floor in the first place, perhaps she was looking for a bathroom. She wasn't carrying toiletries which indicate to me that she wasn't looking for a shower but maybe she couldn't sleep, i recall reading in her tumblr that she had problems sleeping or maybe was bored and just looking around the hotel. I don't know what medication she was given for her bipolar but if she was on meds that night they would have had a sedative affect most anti psychotic meds are sedating and like i said earlier could explain her movements in the elevator.
Side affects to medications vary but its a known fact that a lot of depressed people after being prescribed medication can have adverse reactions, feeling of severe suicide being one of them. I wonder how long she was on medication, why was she not being closely monitored by her physician. For me personally when i was diagnosed bipolar i had to check in with a psych nurse every week to make sure i was not having bad thoughts and to make sure the sure the medication they were given me was working.
Living in the same city she did when she was diagnosed and prescribed psychiatric meds makes me wonder if perhaps there was some failure or neglect on her physicians part. Or maybe her case wasn't as severe as mine but that would make it even worse in my opinion, psychiatric medication should not be handed out like candy.
I cannot speak for everyone who gets diagnosed and prescribed meds here in Vancouver but i do know that you need an actual referral from your family doctor to see a mental health practitioner and then the psychiatrist is the one who diagnoses and prescribes meds. Im sure it happens but i have to say that its very rare a general practitioner would diagnose someone bipolar and prescribe them meds.
Well those are my thoughts i wanted to share with the forum here I'm hoping it can at least shed a little light on her mental health.
I haven't really formed an opinion on whether i think she took her own life or not, i do think the details surrounding her death are way too strange to assume it was suicide though (the anal brushing, her clothes were removed and in the tank, the size of the tank lid, not jumping off the building)
I have been witness to one suicide in my life, a lady jumped from my building six years ago and i never got over that. I remember at the time and for a long time after i just didn't want to accept someone would do something so brutal to themselves. I remember telling myself it was an accident she just slipped somehow but yes, she committed suicide.
So did she commit suicide? Well i know if she was having adverse reactions to medication my answer would be yes its very likely and if they were bad reactions any kind of behaviour is possible. She could have been heading up to the roof at the time of the video with the intent to kill herself and maybe was trying to talk herself out of it.
I am still going to keep reading about this and maybe one day some new information will come out about what happened.
Thank you for reading