Yes. I hear you. I am in recovery and had a few incidents and episodes that could have ended this way, had I lived in the extreme heat of Texas.
Traveling for work after a relapse. Still shaky. Having to explain myself for missing a few days of work. Fully dressed, business attire, I enter the lobby of the office. The shakes and cravings are overwhelming. The pressure is overwhelming. I can't go up to the office. I flee, and walk in my heels a mile and a half to a restaurant with a bar for just one drink to take the edge off...only to come to hours later in my hotel room with no recollection of how I got back there.
I have no real idea of course, but I can imagine some thing like this happening, if Chrissy was struggling with so many things on her plate. It's heartbreaking to me.
Hugs to you
@mewmew. I see you, I feel you, stay strong. I'm coming up on 5 years when I couldn't even go 5 minutes without a drink.