TX TX - Deanna Merryfield, 13, Killeen, 22 July 1990 - #1

[MissieMt]

Bumping again.

 

[SeriouslySearching]

Missiemt~ I have neglected you and Deanna. I am sorry. I hope you are making progress and things will continue on a positive path. It sounds like you are working diligently and I know you deserve to have answers you so desperately seek. Hugs~

 

[TxBecca]

Missie, I've been lurking here for a couple months, and just recently became a member.

My dad was in the Army, so I spent a lot of time growing up in Killeen. While I was only 5 when Deanna went missing, my mom says she remembers seeing about Deanna missing on the news.

You and your family, especially Deanna, are in my throughts and prayers. I hope one day you are able to have all the answers.

 

[MissieMt]

TxBecca, thank you and welcome to WS! I think your Mom is probably remembering Jenna Rae Robins. Unfortunately Deanna never received the news coverage she so desperately needed and deserved. Even now, it is an uphill battle to get even a snippet about her. I thank you for your interest, and look forward to reading more posts from you!!!

 

[MissieMt]

SS-please do not be so hard on yourself! I understand that sometimes life and other cases take over, and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that.

I just want to know. Even if she is okay and wants nothing to do with us. Even if she is not okay but still wants nothing to do with us. Even if she is dead. I just want to know.
I have pictures in my house of her, and sometimes the kids will ask me who she is. What do I say? I can not lay the story of Deanna on the shoulders of an 8 yr old and 4 yr old. I just don't know what to tell them, so I say nothing. I never want to ignore my childrens questions but in this case I do.
And Deanna's twin....ugh my heart breaks for Bekki. She is still carrying so much hurt in her heart from all of this, and she deserves peace.
I wish there was some way I could just get a message to her even if I was never told where she was, I just want her to know. To know that I understand why she left, if she did leave on her own accord. And to let her know that she was the best sister ever for the time I had her. To let her know that there are people who still love her, people who still wonder. People who have never even met her want to know that she is okay.
....ugh, my venting is over. Thank you!!

 

[SeriouslySearching]

Venting is a good thing, Missie. I understand how frustrating it must be when you have no answers.

As far as the kids asking about her photos, maybe you should just tell them her name and ask them to include her in their prayers because she is someone you used to know and love. You don't have to tell them details other than you grew up with her and lost touch over the years. This would satisfy their curiousity and give Deanna two extra prayers a day going up.

Hang in there, Missie~

 

[Julessleuther]

Oh sweety, I wish I could give you a big hug. In a small way, I do know how you feel. I was adopted at age 5 and had 1 brother and 2 sisters from my natural family that I grew up not knowing where they were. I was fortunate as an adult that I have found them all, and I really believe in my heart that you too will have your answers. Do the police think she is alive but does not want contact? If so, maybe she will at the very least see your heart felt message and know that you love her. I remember reading about a yr ago that the LE thought they knew where she was a few yrs after after she went missing. Do you think that is true? Whenever there is a new post on this thread, I rush here, and I so want you to have your answers!!

SS-please do not be so hard on yourself! I understand that sometimes life and other cases take over, and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that.

I just want to know. Even if she is okay and wants nothing to do with us. Even if she is not okay but still wants nothing to do with us. Even if she is dead. I just want to know.
I have pictures in my house of her, and sometimes the kids will ask me who she is. What do I say? I can not lay the story of Deanna on the shoulders of an 8 yr old and 4 yr old. I just don't know what to tell them, so I say nothing. I never want to ignore my childrens questions but in this case I do.
And Deanna's twin....ugh my heart breaks for Bekki. She is still carrying so much hurt in her heart from all of this, and she deserves peace.
I wish there was some way I could just get a message to her even if I was never told where she was, I just want her to know. To know that I understand why she left, if she did leave on her own accord. And to let her know that she was the best sister ever for the time I had her. To let her know that there are people who still love her, people who still wonder. People who have never even met her want to know that she is okay.
....ugh, my venting is over. Thank you!!

 

[MissieMt]

Thank you all for your support. Yesterday was an off day for me, to say the least. After reading about Love_Mama I just kind of lost it.

1995 is the last time they THINK she might have had contact with LE, and it was minimal contact to say the least. That is when the description of the tattoos was put on her NCMEC and TXMPCH web pages.
The impression I am getting: Since that is the only info we have of her possibly being seen alive they have kind of taken that ball and ran with it. We are presuming she is alive because we have more pointing that way than towards death-as of right now.
Now I can't speak for LE as to whether or not that is what they are actually doing, I just get that impression.

Jules:what a blessing to be able to find your family after all of those years. Thank you for the hope!!

 

[MissieMt]

Today is Deanna and Bekki's Birthday! She has been gone for well over half her life, if she is alive. I would imagine if she is alive, after so long it might be hard to come back and possibly reopen old wounds. If she ever does come back I think she would see that we are all on her side now, and those who are not would not be issues. Me and my sisters have worked very hard to remove the negative from our lives. I haven't spoken to our step father since April of '06, and most of the extended family since our Mom's memorial service in Feb. of '02. I do get to talk to our Uncle Jimmy from time to time now that he is out of prison. I think she would be really proud of the ways he has changed.

 

[DJ3569]

Happy Birthday Deanna and Bekki! Missie you and your family will be in my prayers, I hope that you will be able to find all the answers that you so richly deserve. Donna

 

[Salem]

Happy Birthday Deanna and Bekki! And hugs to you Missy!

Missy - do you have a myspace or facebook page that Deanna could find if she did a search for your name? Or does Bekki? Deanna wouldn't know your married names, so she wouldn't be able to search them...... I'm sure you do, I know you have a beautiful myspace for Deanna herself. Just thinking she might not search her name, but maybe yours or Bekki's.

I never search my name........

Salem

 

[MissieMt]

Thats a good question Salem. I do have a myspace and facebook, but I'm not sure if they will come up under my maiden name!

ETA: just did the search and they do pop up under our maiden name also

 

[MissieMt]

bumping again!!!

Hope everyone is having a great Friday

 

[Fairy1]

Today is Deanna and Bekki's Birthday! She has been gone for well over half her life, if she is alive. I would imagine if she is alive, after so long it might be hard to come back and possibly reopen old wounds. If she ever does come back I think she would see that we are all on her side now, and those who are not would not be issues. Me and my sisters have worked very hard to remove the negative from our lives. I haven't spoken to our step father since April of '06, and most of the extended family since our Mom's memorial service in Feb. of '02. I do get to talk to our Uncle Jimmy from time to time now that he is out of prison. I think she would be really proud of the ways he has changed.

You know, Missie, since learning about you and Deanna, I have often hoped that she did the same - removed the negative and moved on to a positive and meaningful life. You may very well be right on the nose thinking that she doesn't want to go backwards - she just doesn't know how things from her past have changed for the better. I do hope this is the case because then there is the hope that she will do exactly what you did and will begin searching for you when she's ready. Keep the faith!

 

[MissieMt]

Bumping again!!!!

It looks like I'm going to have to start stomping my feet in a tantrum (AGAIN) to get the stuff that was promised to us a few weeks ago, so wish me luck!

 

[TxBecca]

Bumping again!!!!

It looks like I'm going to have to start stomping my feet in a tantrum (AGAIN) to get the stuff that was promised to us a few weeks ago, so wish me luck!

Good luck!! Also, thanks for the welsome a while ago.

 

[MissieMt]

Thanks for the good luck TxBecca.
Things are still quiet. Waiting on answers from Sgt.D
Stuff is still happening behind the scenes of course, but there just isn't a whole lot of concrete information to give. Ugh!!

 

[NSC]

Hi Missie,

Just stopping by your thread. I hope you get some answers soon from Sgt. D. -- Happy belated birthday to Deanna and Bekki. ((HUGS))

 

[NSC]

Prayers for you Missie! Thinking of you!!

 

[Fairy1]

Missie - is there anything we can do to help you?