soyesterday
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im so sorry for what you went through...i'm glad you can talk to someone nowIt was a man married into the family (Not a step father, but a step grandfather). I had no father figure at all. My mom worked full time never had time to take me to playdates, or let me have friends over, i was an only child and SOOO VERY lonely growing up.
It started when I was 5 (molesting) and then was raped when i was 9.
He never laid a hand on me after that, to this day I don't know why.....as i was forced to have daily contact with him. He and his wife (my step-grandmother who had been married to my grandfather when he died) were my after school baby sitters.
Then when I was older 11-12 a couple of my mom's boyfriends started with me. I fought that off every time, played the avoidance game of staying outside, going to friends when they were alone at my house etc.... But never told. I was depressed at that point in time and convinced myself it didn't matter and wasn't important (I wasn't important).. after having been raped it was the least of my lifes worries.
I am 30 yrs old now and just finally a couple years ago broke down and told a therapist what happened. It's been a rough road. I have PTSD, fought drugs and some other issues. There is a thread down in the parking lot for sexual abuse survivors. It's both hard to read and comforting at the same time.
These people that abuse children like they do.. i don't think know or care about the damage they are causing.....not just immediate damage, but the life long damage that can take a lifetime or longer to heal.
i'm 34 and i just finally told the police last year
maybe i'll check that thread in the parking lot
i'm having a really hard time w/ this all lately

thanks for letting me know...