Found Deceased TX - Leanne Bearden, 33, Garden Ridge, 17 Jan 2014 #11

[Lilibet]

I don't feel in the mood to listen to this band right now, just want to know what kind of music are they doing?

The song Chocolate posted has an upbeat, catchy chorus "All I need is you smiling at me." I liked it and I was glad to hear it. Still not loving their other stuff that I heard.

 

[Lilibet]

BBM
Leanne had mentioned several times on their travel blog that she had ADD (attention deficit disorder). She said a couple times that her ADD was acting up and she needed to jump rope to help relieve it.

She also said once (it may have been Josh writing that entry) while going into one of the cathedrals, that "Leanne needed to ask forgiveness for being so impatient lately." I can't remember what country they were in at the time.

I'm pretty sure her ADD wasn't alcohol /drug dependency. Josh (or her?) said she drank very little compared to him. However, there are several photos where she's drinking wine or beer.

I too am a baby boomer and have never heard of that band.

I do remember reading about Leanne's ADD, and that's probably how she interpreted that song. A lot of people in a "lyric meanings" thread thought that, but others were correcting them and saying it was alcohol/drug dependency. The song lyrics seemed to support the latter meaning, but who knows? I might be extra sensitive right now, but the line I referred to earlier was upsetting, along with the tone of the song.

 

[Elainera]

Elainera, I picked up in the original audio interview with the police chief after the body was found, her mention of bamboo. Given the content of the interview there was no specific reason for her to mention bamboo unless it was part of the story. Then we have this interview -

http://www.ksat.com/news/neighbor-discovers-body-of-bearden/-/478452/24472026/-/e94fvoz/-/index.html

A person does not need to have a lot of elevation to hang oneself; a drop is not needed necessarily. It can be done from any height above the body line/lying down even.

bbm

I just pulled up the Wikipedia page for hanging - I don't want to link it, it is so gruesome to read. But apparently the kind of hanging you describe (without a drop) is very common for suicide and it takes between 10-20 minutes for the person to die because the neck does not break. However, if I understand it correctly, people pass out long before that because blood flow to the brain is also restricted when the neck is pressed. Hopefully Leanne passed out quickly! So sad to think about these things.

 

[Nugget]

When I first read of Leanne and her life I was envious. Her worldwide adventures, absolutely stunning eye for fashion (I look haggard while I travel - she looked flawless), her courage to explore the unknown. I don't have those qualities. I want them, but I was happy and intrigued to see her because she represented something I am striving to be in many ways (as a spectator from the outside looking in).

When she was found I was devastated. In many cases I can detach myself enough to move on to new MP cases and although I never forget, I am able to focus my attention on others who need found.

I can't. I can't stop thinking of her. She is haunting my mind because I think of her all day. I don't know what to do, but I am heartbroken. I think of her family and friends and I wish I could take their pain away because I know this must not be what they imagined.

Just had to get that off my chest. I need closure, but she has captivated me.

 

[TigerLilly]

I have been thinking about you and what you wrote since I read this. BBM I just want to tell you in my household I am in better health than my husband. We too have been married for many years. He suffers from both heart and back problems.

Honestly there are no limitations on his love for me. I would rather spend forever with him and any disabilities he brings to our marriage.

He is kind and good and loving and has always thought the moon rises and sets on me. I would rather spend a few good years with this kind gentle man than travel the earth with another.

Rest easy. Your husband loves you...just the way you are!

Wow Honeybun....I could have wrote this. My hubby is recovering from his fifth back surgery. So ditto Lilibet and anyone who feels like they are less because of their personal limitations. Love covers our weaknesses!!

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[Starry Night]

Here is that band's (AWOL...........) biggest video/song:

AWOLNATION - Sail - YouTube

 

[Starry Night]

To me-this song is how I want to remember her............but I would rather hear the voice of that Sweet Singer Leanne.

loving you minnie riperton - YouTube

 

[Cardinal47]

So now I am thinking about arrangements for Leanne. It's too bad the facebook page had to shut down because knowing what was being done would also be a bit of closure for all of us.

I sm wondering where the funeral and burial will be. Leanne's family are in GA but Leanne and Josh made their home in Denver, CO.

I don't think anything in TX because that is Josh 's parents retirement home so I don't think he has ties there either.

They might hold a memorial service there at the church in the community. Josh family is a retired Army Chaplain so they might have something for searchers, neighbors and Josh's family and friends in Texas.

The support of family and friends during this very difficult time is very lifting.

Josh has lost his wife, his lover, traveling companion and best friend.

The days and nights have to be so very lonely!

 

[Lilibet]

Here is that band's (AWOL...........) biggest video/song:

AWOLNATION - Sail - YouTube

That's the one I was talking about earlier. I guess it's best not to read the lyrics! I couldn't understand what he was singing, except "sail," thank goodness. The video was pretty weird, but I'm out of touch.

 

[NanZDrew]

When I first read of Leanne and her life I was envious. Her worldwide adventures, absolutely stunning eye for fashion (I look haggard while I travel - she looked flawless), her courage to explore the unknown. I don't have those qualities. I want them, but I was happy and intrigued to see her because she represented something I am striving to be in many ways (as a spectator from the outside looking in).

When she was found I was devastated. In many cases I can detach myself enough to move on to new MP cases and although I never forget, I am able to focus my attention on others who need found.

I can't. I can't stop thinking of her. She is haunting my mind because I think of her all day. I don't know what to do, but I am heartbroken. I think of her family and friends and I wish I could take their pain away because I know this must not be what they imagined.

Just had to get that off my chest. I need closure, but she has captivated me.

It is impossible to not be sad about suicide. I think what makes it sadder than murder is the fact that the person suffered from a delusion that there was no hope for their life and failed to see how special they were to others. There were so many special things about Leanna that even strangers fell in love with her through reading her blogs and hearing her story. If only the depression, or other mental illness, had not blinded her and deceived her as to how special she was and how loved she was. IF ONLY SHE HAD KNOWN! That is part of what is so haunting! Suicide is the greatest self-deception.

Years ago, a high school girl hung herself in a bathroom stall at school. Her little brother was in my stepson's school so he was obviously upset. She was going through some of the normal things kids go through...parents splitting up, not making the cheerleading squad, boyfriend break-up, and gaining weight. A few days after the funeral, I took my stepson to her gravesite that was overrunning with flowers. I explained to him that death was forever. I told him that in 10 years he could come back here, and she was still going to be in the ground. She would never go to prom, get married, go to college or have children. I explained that she had thought nobody cared, but she was wrong. She was 16. In two years, she would have been able to make her own decisions and change the problems in her life. I told him that life was hard, but when it seemed unbearable to reach out to others and tell someone. Just find a way to make it through the hard times. I'm glad I had that talk with him and showed him that grave site that was overflowing with love and grief all around it, because he did have hard times and his mother and aunt both committed suicide several years after this happened.

To me, this is what touches us so deeply is that a special person who is loved is so overwhelmed by wrong functioning in their brain that they can't see how special they are, how loved they are and the hope of a future. It is such a horrible waste.

 

[Starry Night]

Loneliness..........


Carpenters - Superstar - YouTube

 

[Lilibet]

Loneliness..........


Carpenters - Superstar - YouTube

Ahhhhh.....Karen Carpenter. Another one gone too soon.

 

[Lilibet]

What I wish I could have told Leanne.

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=jjNgn4r6SOA

 

[KateB]

This came on local radio a bit ago. Seems appropriate for all of us and Leanne's family and friends on this quiet Sunday morning.
Stevie Ray Vaughan(SRV)-Life Without You

Ooh, ooh now baby, tell me how have you been
We all have missed you, and the way you grin
The day is necessary, every now and then
For souls to move on, givin' life back again and again
Fly on, fly on, fly on my friend
Go on, live again, love again

Day after day, night after night
Sittin' here, singin' every minute, as the years go passing by, by, by, by
Long look in the mirror, we've come face to face
Wishing all the love we took for granted, love we have today

Life without you, all the love you passed my way
The angels have waited for you so long, now they have their way
Take your place

 

[PLT]

bbm

I just pulled up the Wikipedia page for hanging - I don't want to link it, it is so gruesome to read. But apparently the kind of hanging you describe (without a drop) is very common for suicide and it takes between 10-20 minutes for the person to die because the neck does not break. However, if I understand it correctly, people pass out long before that because blood flow to the brain is also restricted when the neck is pressed. Hopefully Leanne passed out quickly! So sad to think about these things.

You made me think - could Leanne have possibly been researching that topic as well along with other options? Maybe the links to these searches were one of the items LE found when inspecting the computer. the family statement about her being vulnerable and that they were not sure of her physical and mental state would make sense. Again - we may never know but your statement sparked that idea for me.

 

[proanim8r]

My meaning of the AWOLNation song "Sail" will always be associated with this video. I think it matches somewhat the adventurous spirit of Josh and Leanne.

Jeb Corliss " Grinding The Crack" - YouTube

 

[Poppyflower]

I don't feel in the mood to listen to this band right now, just want to know what kind of music are they doing?

I have heard of this band, but never listened to them. Their songs are edgy. I think this is because of what the singer when through with addiction. He references his struggles in a interesting, dark poetic way. It is dancey at times, especially All I Need. Other songs are kinda ADD if you will, going from dancey and pop-y to depressing lyrics.

Sail is probably the creepiest to me. It is really heavy. They do a really amazing job to get their experiences across.

I agree that it is eery and I wonder how much Leanne liked this band. Obviously enough to be angry and disappointed (per their blog) but was it in her top 20? 10? 3?

 

[Poppyflower]

Given their travels and how sad we are...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BUi6YQ9x6J4&feature=kp

Standing on the Moon - Grateful Dead
Standing on the moon
I got no cobweb on my shoe
Standing on the moon
I'm feeling so alone and blue
I see the Gulf of Mexico
As tiny as a tear
The coast of California
Must be somewhere over here - over here

Standing on the moon
I see the battle rage below
Standing on the moon
I see the soldiers come and go
There's a metal flag beside me
Someone planted long ago
Old Glory standing stiffly
Crimson, white and indigo - indigo

I see all of Southeast Asia
I can see El Salvador
I hear the cries of children
And the other songs of war
It's like a mighty melody
That rings down from the sky
Standing here upon the moon
I watch it all roll by - all roll by

Standing on the moon
With nothing else to do
A lovely view of heaven
But I'd rather be with you

Standing on the moon
I see a shadow on the sun
Standing on the moon
The stars go fading one by one
I hear a cry of victory
And another of defeat
a scrap of age-old lullaby
Down some forgotten street

Standing on the moon
Where talk is cheap and vision true
Standing on the moon
But I would rather be with you
Somewhere in San Francisco
On a back porch in July
Just looking up to heaven
At this crescent in the sky

Standing on the moon
With nothing left to do
A lovely view of heaven
But I'd rather be with you - be with you

 

[I'm Lahoma]

What was the name of the band she used to be in?

 

[proanim8r]

What was the name of the band she used to be in?

Paradyme. You can find their page on FB.