It's all interpretation, isn't it. If she turned out to be guilty and nobody had picked this up they'd be blamed for that too!
What I'd love to know is whether any of her fellow nurses felt concerned. There have been a few possible hints but that's all.
Looking at the messages over time I get a slight impression that JJ-K was very astute and you couldn't easily pull the wool over her eyes. I think LL picked up on it and didn't really turn to her as much as time went on.
Jun
LL: "Not the vented baby necessarily, I just feel I need to be in 1, to get the image out of my head. To be in 3 is eating me up. All I can see is him in 1. It probably sounds odd but it's how I feel x"
JJ-K: “
It sounds very odd and I’d be complete opposite.
LL: “Well that’s how I feel. I don’t expect people to understand but I know how I feel and how I have dealt with it before. I voiced that so can’t do any more, but people should respect that.”
JJ-K: “I think they do respect it but also trying to help you. Why don’t you go in 1 for a bit?”
LL: "Yeah, I have done a couple of meds in 1. I’ll be fine. Forget I said anything, I will be fine, it's part of the job but just don't feel like there is much team spirit tonight x"
JJ-K:
"I am not going to forget but think you're way too hard on yourself."
JJ-K: "Hoping you are going to [be] ok, this is not like you.
Aug
JJ-K: "That’s sad. ‘We’re on a terrible run at the moment.
Were you in 1? x"
LL: "Yes. I had him and F x"
JJ-K: "That’s not good,
you need a break from it being on your shift. x"
LL: "It's the luck of the drawer (sic) isn’t it, unfortunately. Only three trained, so I ended up having both, whereas just F the other shifts."
JJ-K: "
You seem to be having some very bad luck though."
Sep
JJ-K: "How you doing x”
LL: "Had rubbish nights. x"
JJ-K: "Yeah gathered. x"
LL: "
Thought someone would have told you x. Nothing else to say really, just hope they are both ok"
JJ-K: "Don't know ins and outs as tried to avoid it, needed a break. Found Thursday horrendous, not really slept since then. Hope you're ok"
LL: "That is understandable,
won't tell you anything."
The conversation turned to LL asking which of the team had informed JJ-K about the events of the night-shift for Sept 6-7. After a few guesses, the name 'Ali', in the messages, is said to be correct.
Oct
JJ-K texted LL: How's work?
LL replies that one of the babies she is looking after that night is being transported out that night.
She texted a different nurse about the transfer but also mentioned the mother's dress.
Nov
LL:
Baby J went off then had 33-week twins born at home. One vented on handover + a mountain of antibiotics.
JJ-K:
Not like baby J but you can’t allow for ones that just come
LL: Baby J fitting may end up tubed
JJ-K: You need some sleep.
That’s not like her at all, wonder if something happened
LL: Thinking maybe sepsis. Oh well we can only do our best. Have a good day. In bed now, least I live so close x
a different colleague same night - LL gave more detail -
LL: No.
baby J in 2 screened. Had profound desats and just got 32-week twins born at home, one with cleft lip and only 5 staff x
JMO