I’m glad he was ok, but the thing is this is somewhat quite (very) different.I’ll give an example of how feelings rarely meet facts at all in my own experience.
iwas working at a community centre that had playgroup for toddlers. I was carrying equipment through the hall and this little boy turned around and ran straight into the equipment, huge bump on his head the poor little thing. I felt guilty as hell, so bad like I couldn’t get this sin off my hands. In reality there wasn’t much I could do. He. Turned around so quickly and ran he must not have seen me. Still feel bad about it to this day. apologised to his mum and she said do you know how often kids hurt themselves I said no. She said “everyday don’t worry”. Still did not stop me feeling bad.
You cannot take one part of the evidence and not take into consideration the rest of what we have heard. Her feelings are just a small part to the wider picture. I bet you didn’t take 250 odd papers relating to the children in your care home with you? It’s really looking very bleak IMO and she has incriminated herself with the shredder business and everything else we have so far heard.
Moo