OneLostGrl
I'm going against the grain- I'm going sane
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ITA.. we saw her turn on KC when she badmouthed her: "sociopath" is what she called her daughter. She criticized her in front of Jesse and in front of TonE.
She creeped out Amy by telling her all of KC's faults in the car on the way to TonE's. I'll bet that stolen car report in 1996 was an example of her turning on her. The 911 call is another example.
Chiquita--my mother used to make me crazy. I'd get so mad when she'd criticize me. I'd do everything she expected of me and it was never good enough. She would say one thing and do the opposite. I can easily see how mad and crazy KC could become with a mother like mine. Been there.
My poor younger sister became an addict at age 13. She's 52 now and never worked. My mother would say "she can't work because ...." just fill in the blank. One summer I worked 3 jobs to get a down payment for a house and a neighbor said "your mom hopes you don't get the loan approval".
I always thought I wanted my mother to just die, but I really wanted her to love me.
Ohh gosh you made me cry! I so know what ya'll mean- the mother thing is never easy and I worry every day that I'll turn into her- every day! I was never held responsible for anything in my entire life. I never had to work for anything or take care of my own needs except for my personal hygiene. If I asked for it, I got it.. if she couldn't afford it she'd take me to the store and steal it. She loved me, she'd "do anything for me"!
But nothing I did or said or wore or smelt like was ever good.. enough My fears were shoved aside and made fun of as if they were not real, we (my siblings and I) were forced to adapt to HER life, to fufill HER needs.. you always hope that one day it'll happen, that one day she will see you just as you are and love you for it.
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