The quote about "feel obligated-almost compelled to earn a living for my children" is just plain wierd. I would hope she felt obligated to earn a living for her children, isn't that what "normal" people feel? I don't understand her feeling "almost compelled", what the heck does that mean?She's almost forced to make a living for her kids?
Here's the definition of the word "compel":
Main Entry:
com·pel
- Pronunciation: \kəm-ˈpel\
- Function: transitive verb
- Inflected Form(s): com·pelled; com·pel·ling
- Etymology: Middle English compellen, from Anglo-French compeller, from Latin compellere, from com- + pellere to drive more at felt
- Date: 14th century
1 : to drive or urge forcefully or irresistibly <hunger
compelled him to eat>
2 : to cause to do or occur by overwhelming pressure <public opinion
compelled her to sign the bill>
3 archaic : to drive together
synonyms see
force
And then her saying she was "almost catapulted into this, oblivious to my choices" is another wierd choice of words. The only people who were catapulted into any of this were her children, and they had no choices. Nadya/Natalie was oblivious to her choices when she herself chose to be implanted with embryos, over and again? She saw how it worked the first 6 times she had tried the procedure, what's left to be oblivious of? The only thing I think she was oblivious of was the responsibility of her choices. The weight of her decisions didn't hit her until the money didn't roll in as she expected.
By the way, is octo-gramp's around? Did he have to go out of the country to make some moolah? He seemed like a controlling kind of guy, JMO.