I'm very happy you didn't internalize all of that and you now enjoy the CHOICE of being an orphan. *hugs*
I saw a LOT of my ex in Arias' performance on the stand. It was slippery because the words she used weren't disrespectful or angry, it's the combination and intonation she used that made it so disrespectful and maddening, yet you couldn't pin her down to any specific thing because it was all hostile in such a passive aggressive way.
My ex was a sociopath. The really smooth kind: smart (double PH.Ds from Cambridge and Oxford; law degree from Stanford), handsome, funny, fun, exciting and he could *write* ... but he was always the victim, nothing was ever his fault, it was always something someone else had done or failed to do that caused him to fail, be late, forget something. He could be so condescending and snotty when Id trying to explain why I was upset with him and somehow turned it all around so that, in the end, he's made the convincing argument that IM REALLY THE ONE who actually pissed myself off.
He was so good at turning and twisting and distorting reality so that it ended up being all my fault. And he managed to do it using words that were completely reasonable and rational; no furious words at all. Just measured and calm. Like its me whos the nutjob getting mad. You are so angry with me, B. Your posture is so defensive, I just dont understand ... I'm trying to hear you but you're making it difficult ...
URGH. And when I tried to explain it to people, it even sounded to ME like I was the crazy one. My girlfriends would all roll their eyes and tell me to simmer down. Hah!! After about 6 months, they all got it.
One of my friends who is a shrink encouraged us to go to therapy because I was going completely insane.
After seeing the therapist for about 3 months, he and I and his kids flew to the UK to visit his family. (semi-disaster sigh) When we got back, he didn't want to go to the next therapy session. I went alone.
I sat down and told her we'd spent the 8 weeks we were away with his family. The first thing the therapist said was,
"Are they normal?" :floorlaugh: :floorlaugh:
Shed asked me to send her a few incidents" that had caused problems.

This one was the best examples I sent to her of how he functioned.


And the entire relationship was like that until I moved out. Could not get out fast enough. And of course the breakup was completely my fault and I had been unwilling to commit.