I stayed up half the night reading the manifesto and by the time I finished reading it, I was too mentally exhausted, angry, and horrified to post my opinions on it until I got my mind together and slept on it.
First and foremost, I do want to say this. I don't care if ER claims to be a virgin, if I was LE, I would be looking into every and all unsolved sexual assault cases in the areas he lived since High School.
Now, onto the manifesto. Warning: These are my opinions. They may not be very popular.
Elementary Age 5-10
ER was a hateful little boy. I didn't see a boy being viciously teased or even bullied. I seen a young boy who thought he was above anything and anybody. Nobody was ever good enough for HIM! Nothing was ever good enough for HIM. Including his parents and his sister. His treatment and opinions of his little sister during this time in his life disturb me the most. She was beneath him even as a young boy. I question whether or not she was the victim of hidden abuse at the hands of her brother, both verbal and physical, during this timeframe.
And the tantrums!?!?!?! My God!! This would be a constant his entire life!! And they were tantrums!!
I'm not going to go through every single incident I found disturbing because there are way too many. I will say what I did take from this period in his life... He was evil to the core. Yes, even as a child. The film "Bad Seed" immediately came to mind.
Middle School 11-13
Again, he HAD friends and girls were even talking to him and hugging him. Oh, but that wasn't good enough for him!! Nope! He expected more! He should have been treated like a KING by any and all!! He deserved it!
This is also the age where he became so involved with video games. His step-mother was the ONLY one to see an issue with his online gaming and put a stop to it when he was staying at their house and boy did he HATE her for it! She was the only adult in his life who made consequences a reality in his world and I'll give the father credit for backing up his wife, but that is all I will give him credit for in this period of ER's life. When he was staying with his mother, he talked about staying out until 3am with friends playing video games at a store down the street.
I won't get into all the disturbing moments during this part of his life because again, there are just too many. What I came away with was that he was a SOCIOPATH and a dangerous one!
High School 14-18
Sex. Sex. Sex. I am OWED sex!! Oh, he can't fool me with that talk of "love" because I see right through his own words. He didn't want love! He wanted girls to do what he expected of them! To desire HIM and have sex with HIM and only HIM! He didn't have a hard time making friends! He simply didn't want friends! He wanted slaves! He wanted people to serve him! And he hated that they didn't.
Money. Money. Money. Although he lived a far more opulent lifestyle than 98% of Americans, it still wasn't good enough for him. He deserved more! His father going through a financial crisis... he took it as his father being selfish, a bum, and idiot. His mother not marrying that rich man with a house in Malibu... he took it as a personal insult to HIM because HE deserved to live the life of another man worked for.
Every house. Every bedroom. Every apartment. Every condo. Every neighborhood. Every car. Every vacation. Nothing was good enough for him!
I was so flipping happy when the Step-Mother kicked him out of her home when he turned 18!! And I am happy that the father backed his wife up. However... by this time I was NOT shocked by ER's reaction to this. In his mind, HE was entitled to that HOME as the first born SON! It was HIS! Not some lowly woman (he used a lot worse words to describe the step mother) who was below him!!
Again, I will not get into every single disturbing moment, but I stand by my statement about LE checking into any unsolved sexual assaults! I don't care if he says he was a virgin! I don't put it past him raping a woman and still considering himself a virgin because a girl didn't willingly give it up.
College - 18-22
I'm going to have to take a break.
