Carpe Pacem
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Thank you. I didn't realize how much I was affected until today - as soon as the chaplain came I teared up and continued to tear up for the next hour. It's not good to hold this stuff in, seems like the only place where I can process and think about it is here.
Maybe the nurses have a better handle on this kind of stuff, I don't know. I don't work for Kaiser, I'm an outside contractor who works on the same floor and unit. I am not in the medical field.
It was the same at the university I worked at for years. Anything unpleasant was downplayed to a crazy extent. We had strict orders not to comment to anyone outside of the university asking questions about certain events, but to refer them to a particular liason. This, unfortunately seems to be the way of the world.
It's a sign of your goodheartedness that you care so much. I, too, would rather be compassionate than become hardened.
Hope your little one was fine at the vigil. My own two-year-old grandbaby would've been quiet and happy if he could ride on my hip throughout. Thirty pounds gets heavy pretty fast though.
Hope you can distract yourself from this for a while, and give your mind a break.