Left the house for the first time in weeks, took a drive up Perry Park Road.....
My heart is heavy.
To think she did something so ugly, so vile, so serpentine against such a majestic backdrop, it's grotesque. Just grotesque. A violation of all that is good...
I cannot get my head around her decisions. Not the least of which, the location she picked. It makes no sense. Even if I reverse engineer it, starting at her postsplain -- the trip to Castle Rock that she never took, the bike shopping that never happened, forced detour off of I-25 because of dubious car accident. The only truth, that she got lost. THAT PART is credible. Because I did too. Very easy to get turned around with all those winding offroads. That she did any of it at night is mind boggling. It would've had to be dark as pitch out there. Only her exit from the highway would have beenit up like day. Exit 105 is a hub in Monument, a huge cluster of restaurants, gas stations, businesses. A CRAZY exit to take. Unless you have a destination (or general location) already in mind. Very quickly though it becomes less commercial...two small towns, Palmer Lake and Larkspur, with houses -- some closer together, some farther apart -- along the way. No good place to stop.
She must've been out that way before. Family daytrip to Spruce Mountain? All those trails, perhaps she had a very real memory of some remote locations???? Still, her choice just makes no sense. If it was between 11 and 1 that day, she would have quickly been pressed for time.... she would have been a long way from Mandan....and 3:15 would have been pressing down on her.
It's hard to fathom that her first foray out there was Tuesday night... so dark....perhaps it would feel more desolate.... I can't imagine getting lost, turned around out there after dark, with no phone for navigation to get back out....
I have been in the camp where the murder occurred between 11 and 1 .... but I can't quite reconcile the rental... was it JUST to keep AS out of her car? Was there blood in her car? Bloody sheets waiting for disposal... or a body, after all? And no way for her to get the body from her car to the rental so she HAD to take her own car? But was that part of her reasoning for GETTING the rental, for transport? But she had to reject that plan?
Or did she in fact murder Gannon between 11 and 1, but at a location as yet undiscovered by LE? And she moved him on Tuesday, from there to Perry Park, and then again, to Florida? We know she's not adverse to moving him. Monster. In this scenario, it under-utilizes the rental ....
Did she make THREE separate excursions to PP? Monday at noon, Tuesday at 9 pm and again on the 31st?
Is LE right that she DID go there to make sure he was concealed, only they are off by WHICH trip of hers she did that? They didn't know that she'd EVER moved him, at that point....
Could it be she left him at PP on Monday, went back on Tuesday to move him farther, under the cover of night (and really did get lost, driving around in the dark, unsure of the exact location she'd been to the day before), and then again on Friday, before removing him altogether?
Is EVERYTHING about her frenetic????? I can't follow her movements, her explanations, her ENGLISH.
Regardless...
...where in Hell's name did she go on Monday, between 11 and 1 and why??????
Could there be a mystery location?
Just how many times did TS move his precious body?
Just when did TS remove the suitcase from the home?
As an aside, hers and mine, outside of these events, was TS ACTIVELY planning to bolt? The Google searches --apartments in Florida. Flight attendant jobs. Could she ALREADY have had a (brown) suitcase packed, ready to grab at a moment's notice? And then something happened on Sunday night that gelled it, only with a whole different HOMICIDAL urgency????
So many questions....
Sobering to travel her path.
And yet, what remains for me is how beautiful the area was and how beautiful it remains. Mountains and spruce trees, a mountain lake and some million dollar houses, gorgeous rock formations and stately deer, standing guard with a gentle innocence....
It's like all that was putrid blew in with TS and blew right back out, a stench that followed her all the way to where she sits now. Cold, stark, stenchfilled. Essence of T.
May she stew in it.
And Gannon, you are beautiful. She tried but she didn't succeed in taking that away from you....
What remains is the pursuit of justice, to keep TS as far away as possible from life as she knew it.
I wish there were a way to prevent her from so much as seeing another mountain, another sunrise, another sunset, another thing of beauty....
JMO JMO JMO