So strange to be "in the mix" yet so far out of the loop. I am fairly thick skinned and quite adventurous, I thought I was prepared. The day before arriving we hiked 4 miles from 9k to 11k elevation acclimating. Not far but taking everyone's advice.
I have been somewhat verklempt. I log in to Ws and i'm overrwhelmed by the number of pages and posts that I am behind. So I will do my best to catch up as we make our way home tomorrow.
I have taken photos all along, i've been reticent to share but I know other WSer's have and I am so happy they have. Last night was really emotional, it really depends on your source for the "take" on whether it was successful. I felt eerily similar to
@NoSI.
Where is everyone? Even considering COVID. Why is it so quiet? Where were all or most of the searchers? To me it had a resounding sadness that I feel mirrored her life. A loving and vibrant woman taken out of her element and slowly but surely isolated. Nobody except AM spoke; which was beautiful btw, but also terribly sad. Nobody could speak, even via phone? I know everyone is exhausted, it's insane the ground that needs to be covered. I would imagine nobody is more tired both, emotionally and physically than AM. MM & MM weren't there, it was strange and almost surreal.
I'm not judging anyone for going/not going. It just left me tearful and hurt my heart that she still feels so isolated and quieted. ETA:
I wanted to get up on the stage and help. One of those weird moments you go back and visit often. Wondering, did I do the right thing? No photo show, no memories, no friends, no music. Nothing. I felt most sad that if she could sense the gathering, it would have made her even more sad. I hope that makes some sense..
I did not see BM nor TN (the infamous nephew) nor any of Team BM for that matter, or I should say not that I know of. I always felt like he was watching, not only did he brow beat his loved ones, I think he does that to most everyone in his life. The tension was palpable yet I could never put my finger on exactly why. Beyond the loss of this beautiful soul, it seems tension and an anger are BM's baseline... MOO
I understand the photo that PE shared tonight of BM lying on the hill was taken in the initial search AM took part in the first few days following her disappearance. One of the guys he was searching with thought it was really strange and just snapped a photo to show AM later. That's my understanding of that photo!
Today, IMO there was a tad of enthusiasm in the air. I felt it anyway. I understand there were some great leads and possibly some very important pieces of the puzzle located. I hope that is the case. I saw some beautiful country, an amazing community of good hearted people out trying to do the right thing. Nothing at all in it for them, they just want justice. I also just read the search ends tomorrow? The emails I have (as a searcher) say it is from 9/24-9/29. I have nothing saying that has changed??
I'll close by saying the last time I felt this faith in humanity and overwhelming sadness concurrently was when I traveled to ground zero after 9/11. If you are from the area, you likely knew some or many that were taken that day. This had a similar vibe. A strong sense of community, bonded by a terrible travesty.
We never heard what happened to LS. There were some rumors but last night I know people were scratching their heads.
Thank you all for the support. I'll get caught up. #justiceforsuzaane #findsuzanne #shinebrightforsuzanne #bringsuzannehome