What a horrific experience for you and your BF, am so thankful that he survived.
And God bless you for holding your BF in your lap while he was possibly dying. Darlie didn't even do that much for her own baby boy, Damon. All she could think about was herself. That there was much more blood than she thought there would be. That she might have cut a little deeper than she intended. That she might be going to die too. Which is something I dont' think she ever in a million years really intended to happen, because she's just too narcissistic for that, imo.
So she just sat there watching and waiting and actually hoping for her own baby Damon to hurry up and die - that is what is so absolutely and totally heartbreaking :cry:. I can not even begin to imagine the agonizing thoughts that were going through that little boy's head while he was so painfully struggling to take his last breaths, while he witnessed his own mother talking on the phone minute after minute after minute. Watching her completely detached, while exhibiting no actual worry for him, no authentic caring, no true tenderness or compassion, no motherly love for him.
Ya know, I think Damon knew, I think he had to know; I think that it tragically, heartbreakingly dawned on him at some moment while he lay there dying, exactly what was going on, and exactly what his mother really was. I just pray that Jesus and his angels were whispering in his ear, giving him the love and comfort that he deserved. If not then, I know without a doubt they were doing so immediately after.
The more I think about this case and the actions of Darlie Routier, the more I have no doubt that she is totally and completely guilty of killing her little boys. Forget about the stresses she was under, forget about her depression, forget about the effects of the diet pills. In the end, it just boils down to one thing - that she had to be under the control of something very evil in order to commit such violent acts against her own children, then immediately afterward, sit there and mercilessly watch them die. Ijmo that she deserves to be exactly where she is or worse.