I'm sorry... but yeah, I was bawling when I posted it. I thought as the day went on I'd be better, but... no.
I go from bitter ugly angry to devastated in a flash. I think this is the worst case I've been a part of on WS. I thought it was because the uncanny resemblence of Zahra to my daughter. And that may be part of it... that's what drew my husband in. But more so even it's her strength and resilience despite what hell she had to endure at home. I will never, EVER, forget this girl. She may be putting me on a WS hiatus in fact. (Yeah, I say that but never really leave... lol) I feel like I should do more or be more an advocate for her in some way but I am clueless to how. At first, I was going to plant a special plant for her. I think it was Coldpizza who talked me into wisteria. Now.... I'm leaning toward a whole garden. Some may not know that I plant trees/bushes/flowers (perennial) in memory of some children, but they are not in a central location. Some here, some there... I think I'm going to make a Zahra garden. It's nothing... but yet something.
Damn it... I just wish I could turn back the clock and take her.