Tricias journal entry with my notes in [ ]
Apr. 26th, 2016 at 11:37 PM
Your mind is the most ethereally beautiful thing.. [SHE IS ADMIRING SOMEONE, MAYBE A MAN.]
And now is the time to tell you what's been on mine. [THUS FAR, SHE HAS HELD BACK TELLING THIS MAN WHAT IS ON HER MIND, BUT IS GOING TO TELL HIM IN THE NEXT LINES]
I'm broken over your zodiac photography coinciding with God speaking to me about it. [SHE IS UPSET THAT THIS MANS PHOTOGRAPHY FROM ZODIACS (A BOAT) OR OF ZODIACS IS HAPPENING AT THE SAME TIME GOD WAS SPEAKING TO HER ABOUT IT]
Whatever he sets on my soul is not for yours. [GOD WAS SPEAKING TO HER ABOUT ZODIAC PHOTOGRAPHY, BUT THIS MAN IS BASICALLY OVERSHADOWING THE DIALOGUE SHE IS HAVING WITH GOD ABOUT IT. ALMOST MISAPPROPRIATING IT. IT IS A PERSONAL THING BETWEEN HER AND GOD AND NOT FOR HIM]
I do still believe he separated us intentionally. [IN SOME WAY, SHE HAS BEEN SEPARATED FROM THIS MAN, EITHER PHYSICALLY OR EMOTIONALLY]
I believe it was for the good of both of us. [THEY DIDNT WANT THE SEPARATION, BUT IT WAS FOR THE BEST. RED FLAG]
However ugly and hurtful it was when it went down. [THEIR SEPARATION WASNT VERY CALM AND AMICABLE.]
Your path is absolutely different and can't be compared to mine in any way. [PERHAPS THEIR PATH IS DIFFERENT BECAUSE SHE IS GOD-INSPIRED/FOCUS, WHEREAS HE IS NOT]
My rules don't need to be a distraction to you. [SHE DOESNT WANT HER BELIEFS AND RULES/PRACTICES CONCERNING HER RELIGION/SPIRITUATILY TO BE DISTRACTING TO HIM. MAYBE THEY GOT IN THE WAY OF THE RELATIONSHIP]
My opinions block what the Lord is doing in you organically. [SHE BELIEVES THAT WHEN SHE TALKS ABOUT HER OPINIONS ON GOD, THEY MAY GET IN THE WAY OF THIS MAN DISCOVERING AND EXPERIENCING GOD NATURALLY, I.E. ON HIS OWN ACCORD AND WITH HIS OWN NATURAL EXPERIENCES APART FROM HER INFLUENCE]
You've wondered why I've lived this way.. and why I had to suddenly obey.. There was something that I didn't tell you.. and I won't. I can't. I'm afraid. [THE MAN HAS QUESTIONED WHY SHE IS LIVING NOW WITH RELIGION AND IT BEING A FOCUS IN HER LIFE AND HOW SHE FELT THAT HER PRIOR WAY OF LIFE FORCED HER TO TURN TO RELIGION/GOD. THERE WAS A SPECIFIC INSTANCE THAT PROPELLED HER FINALLY TO EMBRACE GOD, RELIGION AND A NEW GOD-FOCUSED WAY OF LIVING. SHE IS NOT TELLING HIM YET WHAT THIS SPECIFIC INSTANCE/EVENT CAUSED HER TO EMBRACE GOD AS A WAY OF LIFE. SHE IS TOO AFRAID TO DO THAT YET.]
As soon as I enter the pool down the steps, the proper way, I'll reveal why I've been so paranoid, if you care to know. [SHE NEEDS THE RIGHT PREPARATION BEFORE SHE TELLS HIM THE REASON]
You warned me about her. I'm glad you did... but I'm still terrified by her words.. she claimed they were his.. and some of them were.. but perhaps not the threat at the end... one.. ... off and my life will be pain and disaster... God help me.. the picture that was shown me. I've been terrified. [MAYBE HER DAUGHTER OR MOTHER SAID SOMETHING THAT SCARED HER, AND HER DAUGHTER/MOTHER CLAIMED SHE WAS REPEATING WHAT SOMEONE ELSE HAD SAID FATHER? EX HUSBAND? AND MAYBE SOME OF THE THINGS SAID TO HER WERE SAID BY HER FATHER OR HUSBAND, BUT PROBABLY NOT ALL OF IT, LIKE THE THREAT INCLUDED IN WHAT THE PERSON SAID]
I posted this in my journal because I am afraid you didn't want to hear from me. Also, I don't want to be making excuses for how I hurt you. If you come here to read this, than it's on you. [SHE DOESNT WANT TO REACH OUT DIRECTLY TO THIS MAN, WITH WHOM SHE SEPARATED, TO SAY ALL THIS BECAUSE SHE WAS CONCERNED HE MIGHT NOT WANT HER TO CONTACT HIM. ALSO, SHE IS SCARED THAT SHE WILL BE PERCEIVED AS USING ALL THE ABOVE AS AN EXCUSE FOR HOW SHE HURT THE MAN (SO SHE PROBABLY INITIATED THE SEPARATION]
So many clues in here. A recent separation, probably from a man. A break-up that was ugly. But regardless, photographing zodiacs (or photographing FROM them) is something that was on her mind very recently. Shouldnt people be checking where zodiacs are rental? Not the closest to Hobe Sound but heres an example of a zodiac rental place:
https://www.facebook.com/coastalrhib/
Not sure a zodiac could be taken to Haiti from Florida. But are there zodiac boat rentals in Haiti? I dunno. This zodiac boat thing is just sooo specific to ignore.