Thank you CP for such nice words.
Tara is filling my mind this morning. I have been to a few other sites just reading, but something is nagging at me that I just can't shake. So I figured that if I just start writing, maybe it would surface.
I don't want Tara to fade away and become a cold case. I made a promise to her, spiritually, that I would stay with her until she was found. This is taking a lot longer than I thought it would, but I couldn't close this door even if I tried. And honestly, I have tried three different times. Times when I felt spent and hopeless against the lack of real movement in her case. But something always happens when I try to close this door. Tara reaches out to me each time. Out of the blue someone will email me and ask me about Tara's case, or it may be a phone call, or it is just that God fills my heart with a new sense of courage to keep trying. The result is that I am still here after 3 years.
Sometimes, as I read others' posts, who have been here the same length of time, I think of what keeps them going too. I know that God must be working through their hearts as well. Tara is being blessed in so many ways. It is important that we don't forget that.
For a while, I thought that I was just a mediocre psychic. I mean, how could I keep missing the only detail that really matters in this case? That being where she is. But now I have come to realize that I am doing the best I know how to and that God has a perfect ending to this that none of us are yet to be privvy to. Some days, like this one, I find my self saying to God "Today seems like a good day to bring her home. Please let it be today". When it doesn't happen, I know that it will come, even if it's not today.
If Tara's family are reading this today, I want you to know that I feel that Tara is truly an angel. Because in my opinion, only an angel could capture so many people's hearts and keep us thinking about her every day for this long. And she will keep a light in our hearts long after she is found. That's what angels do.
In closing, I dont' know if I am any further along, then when I started this post, but maybe you will feel Tara too and that will just be enough for today. Just to know that she is with you and thankful for all that you are doing.