OMG. I have just tapered off topamax/topiramate after six months of taking it. It is horrible. To note: it is awful combined with alcohol, absolutely exhausting. The combination is not something that I would describe as a 'buzz'. About 20 to 30 minutes after taking it I would become extremely hot... we are talking no blankets in the middle of winter. For example, if I had been reading in bed and then took topamax, 20 minutes later my blankets and clothes would come off in a cold bedroom. Strangely enough, throughout the day it would become difficult to get warm again if I felt cold. It absolutely messes with your thermostat.
It is very much like Epilum in that it is used as a mood stabiliser and/or to prevent seizures. You have to taper on to it when starting out because of the risk of heat rash!
It is also used as a treatment for bullemia. I had it as a mood stabiliser after bad flashbacks from PTSD. It is a real appetite killer. It stops bullemia because you just feel 'sated'.
It makes you emotionally numb. Perhaps it was her mother's? Not a fun drug. At all.
moo
ETA: I even complained to my psychiatrist about feeling nothing when my friend's dog died, ironically. I was willing to have PTSD flashbacks rather than continue with that drug!
I'm sorry it affected you that way! That's just horrible! I hope you find something that helps you with your PTSD. I have that too and, just over the past couple years have started improving (I don't take Topamax, or any scrip for that though).
I started having seizures in my teens. Three different types and I'm sensitive to most anti-epileptic drugs. Tried nearly all of them. It doesn't take much of them for me, for them to be effective. Depakote was pure Hell. I get the bad side effects super quick from most of them.
Topamax has been the only drug I've been able to take to keep them under control. I drink on occasion too. I am not a heavy drinker, nor do I drink often, but it never bothers me. I'd rather not take any meds but, as for me, Topamax has been the reason I still have a driver's license.
I even went through brain surgery to try and stop them and got worse side effects from that (although it did give
some relief from
one of the more worst type of seizures that I have. But, what I lost from the brain surgery won't come back, so, I think, if I had it to do over, and know what I do now? I don't know if I'd do it again. Then again, it has provided me with some relief, and I'm sure that my tongue is thankful for that. lol So, for me, I just have to weigh the good with the bad.