Thanks for your dedication, Swampmama!
And thanks for being an "insider". I can only imagine how emotional it must be.:seeya:
I have to say that I am overwhelmed with all of the emotion of dealing with this so i can only imagine how her family feels. I did not know Jaren before her death but I feel I have gotten to know her through her family and friend's statement. It was their obvious love for her along with her beautiful spirit that captured my heart.
I can tell that she has done the same with many of you and i think that is so wonderful. Her family has been thru enough, without yet another website of people making callous and crude comments. Everyone here has been really great about seeing Jaren for the wonderful person she was and not just as a sensational headline. I could just cry in relief because I have seen some really wonderfully supportive comments and feel the love and support and the drive that everyone here has for justice.
I was hoping that is what Jaren's family could see here also. I wanted them to know that there was a website that was for justice and that protected the victim's family and wouldn't hesitate to put someone on a time out or ban them if needed. I know some of her family and friends have come to this website and looked over the comments. A few have posted and I thank them for that. I am sure that everyone here would be honored to have them share a cherished memory or favorite story about Jaren. We have see so many beautiful pictures of her. That smile of hers just lights up her face and you can't help but want to smile too.
I can only imagine how hard it is for her friends and family to try to compose a post with tears in their eyes, a lump in their throat and a heart that is hurting. That is how I feel when posting right now. I didn't want to be an insider to get the scoop on info and to bring attention to myself. I am the least likely person to be that way. I work as a volunteer first responder and I fiercely protect the victims and their family's from anything that I can to lessen their pain. Sometimes I wish i could be a magic sponge and absorb some of their grief and pain somehow, take the burden from them and take some of the impact to less the many things that are hitting them now. I know I can't do that but i will try my best to do what i can.
I have rarely been speechless or at a loss for words but this case has me grappling with trying to find the right words. I never want to say anything that would hurt her loved ones or cause them any trouble. I have had to sit on my hands to keep from typing what i really thought of the ones who did this. So I carefully consider my words, type them out, edit, rewrite and then step away to take a breath and regroup. Then I read my post again before i post it.
I have to say that you guys are so freaking amazing. From the wonderful way that you have totally embraced Jaren and taken her into your hearts to the astounding way that you guys have of digging up stuff. I am in awe!!! I am so proud of you guys.
I had expressed that to Benny (Jaren's brother in law). I told him that this was a place that members cared about justice and protecting the victim and that you guys are in it for the long haul. I really wanted him to know that we care and only want to help. I know he has read some of the pages and can tell how much everyone here really cares.
Again, you guys are the best. I feel relief flowing through me as I read your comments and see your determination and see the info you have tracked down on the internet about the perps. You guys are on this!
Ok, that's enough for now. I need to go take a 5 minute break, come back and reread this and then hit "submit reply".
You know what I said above about being a magic sponge to help absorb the grieve and make things easier. THAT is what you guys are to me. You just don't know much you mean and the difference that makes.
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