Thanks. People couldn't understand why I was so lost after my grandmother and grandfather died 12 weeks apart. If I didn't know the people well, I didn't bother to tell them that I considered my grandparents my parents. Some things are so difficult to discuss. I felt that at the time of their deaths, I couldn't handle explaining to others what kind of life I had with my mother, so I just let them think I was losing my mind. Actually in reality, I just about did lose it when my grandparents died. Of course my mother showed up and acted like an azz. But that is another story for another time. Not worth even mentioning it really. I don't deserve the hurt that accompanies the thought of her.
So, I try not to think about my mother. I do however, think of my grandparents often, and know that they are in a much better place even though I miss them. If anyone ever had a cool grandmother......it was me! LOL. She told me the day I got married to always "give it" to my husband, because if I didn't ...someone else would! LMAO! I was sooooo embarrassed! LOL, but that was my grandmother!!! She was always "hip" with the times! :crazy: She also told me to never be ashamed of who I was. She said....Don't ever think you are not as good as someone else, but on the other hand, you're not a damn bit better than anyone else either! Famous words to live by. I learned so much from her. She was cool.