...whether they got to know him before or after this whole tragedy. It is so sad, but I also believe that Ernesto did do this. I also think that maybe he confessed because of his guilt. If his lawyer said, don't worry, they have no evidence against you. I'll have you out of here in no time!
Maybe he didn't want to get out. Maybe he does feel guilt for his actions. They need to find the duffle bag or go through the apt with a fine tooth comb.
I have tried to hold out hope, that he is alive, and doing well. BUT, if he was, why wouldn't Ernesto just tell where he is. Then, he would have been out already. He never even contested his $500,000 bail. His actions after the fact, his quiet deamenor in the chair, his never saying anything really. It seems to me, it is quite possible that he just snapped for some reason. I used to work with abusive families. Most people who hurt their children, don't want to hurt them. Most of them were also abused as children themselves. They say they will never lash out at their kids or hit them or hurt them in any way. So, they do nothing. When the child misbehaves, they do not disipline the child. But children do need limits, so the child misbehaves more. The parent still refuses to do anything. This pattern continues until the parent can't take the misbehavior any more, and they just SNAP--and lash out at the child. If they were in the kitchen and getting dinner ready. And Giovanni was tired and hungry, he could have been whining and complaining. I don't like that...I don't want to eat that...my mom doesn't make me eat such and such, until Ernesto was at the drawer with the knife and before he knew it, it just happened.
That is the way most abusers discribe the way an outburst happens. Then comes the EXTREME guilt, because they promised themselves that they would never harm their child, like they were abused. It is a sad, but vicious cycle. I have seen it again and again and again. I will say that most of the abuse is with a heavy hand or fist. Sometimes it is severe shaking, like you see with shaken baby syndrome. BUT, there are a lot of times that the parent just lashes out with whatever they have in their hand. A shovel, a knife, a bat, a plate...just to get the child to shut up.
Unless you break the pattern in a family, it is destined to continue down the ranks. SOOOOO SOOOO SAD.
They just don't have sad enough smilies, but I guess that is an oxymoron.
I especially say a prayer for Daisy tonight. That poor lost soul. I hope she takes comfort in her other child, and can forgive herself for dropping Giovanni off at Ernesto's housed. It wasn't her fault, but we are sometimes out hardest critics!
I think I'm just typing and typing, because I just don't want to believe it. I'm just too sad to really know what to say.
