Without giving out major details, why was it so sad? Just girl problems, or something?
Sorry I didn't respond earlier. Incase anyone missed it, I found RP's (uncle by marriage of AB ... and allegedly ILC) journal, but its since been deleted.
IMO, RP sounded seriously depressed, but it also sounded like he was actively working to make everything better. He wrote until summer 2009, so it was recent, but he NEVER mentioned AB. He did discuss KNP, and talked about how KNP was in California for a while - in a city that could easily be tied to the GPs through public records. NOT that it's important, it just cemented to me that this WAS the journal of who I thought it was.
Back to it being sad. The journal was just consistently downbeat and depressing for over a year. This person was really struggling with depression and self-hatred. Most journal entries vented/"ranted" about betrayal and self-loathing. I say ranted in quotes because I realize this college kid in MO probably assumed NO ONE would ever read his journal.
But he clearly discussed his personal issues, and [thankfully] what he was doing to
pro-actively remedy what he felt were his faults. I know I don't know him, but I'm only a few years older than RP - and to realize you don't like where you're going and outline what you'd like to do to change it is a really big step for a 20-something. I do NOT want to disparage RP for his journal, especially if he's reading this, so his "bad past" AS FAR AS I KNOW FROM READING, was NOTHING "BAD" - it seemed to me to reference "typical" (for some) young adult things. Not saying this was in his journal, but for example, wanting to drink less (even if you are over 21), wanting to control your anger, wanting to be sweeter to your family/friends/significant other, being more patient, etc.
When I read what he wrote, it all seemed 100% genuine to me and I honestly felt bad that I was reading it. The lawyer in me said its on a public webpage on the internet, and it might say something important about AB and I should take it seriously and read it but not "tattle" if there was anything questionable NOT related to AB. After reading it, there was nothing about AB and I thought this journal could have easily been substituted for any teenager in this country.
ALSO, from the Xanga (2005) til this journal, he talks about KNP and how much he likes her. And about how mad he got when guys weren't nice to her about her weight. They only started dating in
2008. Those parts of the journal were so super cute.
Honestly. RP if you are reading this, reading your journals I was rooting for you- and I was so happy when I realized you DID marry the woman you have been in love with for a long time. And I was very impressed and happy that you seem to have overcome your past woes. I can't 100% say that myself. But I wanted to congratulate you and let you know... if you didn't inject yourself in this in the way you did, no one would have bothered "researching" as much as we did. But I do understand the impulse.