Lexiintoronto
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I just can't believe that I actually looked at McNeill and didn't see it. I didn't see rapist or murderer...and I should have. I'll be the first one that says, I should have seen it. I should not have allowed myself to believe for one minute that he was doing anything other than what he appeared to be doing...
I'm an idiot, and even in the limited capacity that we have to get involved here, I should have never believed in him. But I did, and I can't change it.
I'm sorry for everyone that had faith that I was right and especially sorry to Shaniya's memory that I couldn't see what should have been blatantly obvious.
I think Shaniya's abduction and death is so painful for those of us who followed it because we saw this beautiful little child in those surveillance photos shortly before her murder. To me she looked as if she was politely holding onto him with her left hand and was making an effort to keep her knees together. She seemed dazed. Such an innocent, good, lovely child.
I think you couldn't see it in him because it's hard for all of us to look at a person and think they'd do something unthinkably horrific to an innocent child. Surely they don't calmly and carefully carry them to torture? All the while being able to pass themselves off as a caring adult? They must look like the murderer of our worst nightmares full of rage and lust.
He looked benign. And he committed the worst crime a human can commit.