"Do you have a difficulty in sleeping? --- I do, My Lady. …[Pause]… I
am scared to sleep… for several reasons, but I have… I have terrible
nightmares about things that happened that night, where I wake up and I
smell… I can smell… I can smell blood and I wake up to be terrified.
…[Witness emotional]… If I hear a noise I wake up, just in a… in a complete
state of terror, to a point that I would rather not sleep, then I fall asleep and
wake up like that. So, for… for many weeks I did not sleep and I… in March,
April last year I had lost a significant amount of weight and was in the care of
my family. I sought medical advice to start medication for sleeping.
You told me finding… getting into your cupboard. Can you tell the
court about that? --- …[Pause]… I cannot remember if it was towards the end
of last year or the beginning of this year, I woke up in a panic and I… I am… I
am blessed that my sister stays on the same property as I do, so I can phone
her in the middle of the night, which I often do to come and sit by me, and on
that particular night… I do not obviously ever want to handle a firearm again or
be around a firearm, so I have got a security guard that stands outside of my
front door at night. But I woke up and I was terrified and I… I for some reason
could not calm myself down, so I climbed into the cupboard and I phoned my
sister to come and sit by me for a while which she did… My Lady"