Does anyone know if this could a profile of his?
http://isitnormal.com/people/Solimorphic/
Yes, that's Sodini's profile. Posters ask others if a particular situation is normal and get feedback and advice from others. "Solimorphic" gives advice and has multiple accounts where he portrays himself as male or female. As poster "Solimorphic" he's very confident in himself and has all the answers because of his years of experience with the opposite sex. His other identities exhibit the traits alleged in GS. It's interesting to read these in hindsight. It's not often that there's information available that offers insight into the mind of a mass murderer who commits suicide.
Just a few of many responses from "Solimorphic", all as recent as April '09 and later. The questions he responded to are paraphrased.
A 20 year old asks if it's normal that he doesn't date and feels like a "loser" 24/7.
At 20, there are girls EVERYWHERE!! Not normal at that age. At 19, I got a summer job at a busy Wendy's at night and Arthur Treachers during the day. Got shotload of dates. Went to pot parties, had overnight *advertiser censored**ks, you name it. You have to go where they are. It's that simple. Now I still do volunteer work, etc.
The man he wishes he was.
Why do women "check out" other women?
The opposite is true, too. When I see a hot chick with a dude, I check him out and ask myself "What does he have to get/keep her?". I usually see a confident demeanor, a take-no- attitude and he leads her. Even if he's 5' 4".
A question that probably plagued him daily. If only he could be that man.
Should I tell my girlfriend that I love her?
When you tell her you love her you give her all the power over your emotional state. If she doesn't at least have strong feelings, she can manipulate and turn you into a wreck. Sorry for the cynicism but after years of this stuff I am more keen to see the downside. Be careful here.
Is it normal that I stay with my abusive husband instead of divorcing him?
If you divorce him he will marry another and abuse her. Kill him!
Is it normal for a 14 year old to practice kissing on her own hand?
I know a guy in his late twenties who told me privately that he felt awkward being with/close to women. He got over this by practicing kissing pictures of women in magazines! Hell, whatever works!
I can picture him doing this with the Cosmopolitan magazine that he tells another poster he reads regularly. (Not him of course. A friend of his.)
A teenager is fearful of approaching a really "hot chick" who sits next to him in class. He's afraid she'll reject him. GS biggest fear.
Sounds like you don't have much experience with the hotties, so she will likely SENSE that and say "no". Practice dating and handling the "regulars" then work your way UP the beauty scale. It's called "practice"! I lernt that after years of doing what you're doing. Nobody goes from Kindergarten to Yale without a lot of in between! My $.02
R. Don Steele principles?
I don't know if I'm happy or sad in life. Is this normal?
Normal? Probably not. Common? Definitely. As more years go by people stuff the emotional hurt of failed relationships, bad job bosses, broken marriage, etc. so deep inside they become unable to feel anything, and don't know what they are even feeling.
By age 35 most people are so rigid and tense to laugh or cry. Not kidding! You can sense something is wrong with these people but just can't put your finger on what it is. They usually drive people away and have few friends. Emotions seem to be a package deal. By stuffing ONE, sadness for example, it is difficult to laugh or show anger appropriately. Just my 0.02
GS was intimately aware of this phenomenon in his life.
Using alternate identities:
In this post, he has posed as a 32 year old woman who's a virgin and wonders if she should just throw caution to the wind and give up her virginity. This post is "her" response to a 40 year old man who wants to die because he's never had sex or a girlfriend in his life. (both posters are Sodini, he's answering himself and getting feedback from others)
Yes I was probably talking about you
Well I googled "avoidant personality disorder" Yep thats me but so are a hundred other disorders and issues LOL. They have a name for everything it seems, and I don't care to label myself.
His google search history shows he did research this disorder.
Don't get me wrong I believe life is a spiritual journey and I have actually been on a path of self discovery for the past couple years with a psychologist, however I haven't told her about my recent feelings yet.
Anyway we all have issues, I think you might be surprised that there really probably is no such thing as normal. I have shame issues that stem from narcisitic parents and over the years developed some OCD issues, self esteem problems and social anxiety ect.... I now choose not to be a victim of my past but an instigator for my future! I am now %100 responsible for the future I create for myself and so are you! I'm still going to struggle but I'm takeing small steps.
We need to be humble and reach out for help when we need it, people are there just reach out seriously if you take one step toward change things will come your way, if you believe in God, the Universe whatever. He will meet you halfway, you just need to take that first step! I'm learning this in my own life, it's not too late to start liveing I think, the key is don't wait if you an idea a passion a dream, get on the phone do it now!
I don't think you have to die without haveing sex, you are young! For me fear always holds me back (which I'm working on) but for you what is it? Not everyone is beautiful you know. I think you can find a lover no matter what you look like, I would say get out there take a risk, join a club, a gym, a hikeing group just to get out with people we need to get out of our heads, join life issues and all! Fat or skinny, beautiful or not! We all belong here, we all have worth we just need to keep telling ourselves that ok. Take care and I really hope you reach out!
He's trying desparately to convince himself of all of this.
The last one is probably most representative of the true GS. It's interesting that the poster "she" is responding to is a 40 something, male virgin who has given up and doesn't want to live any longer. "She" is also a virgin, about a decade younger but has the knowledge of what she must do to bring about a change and is working on it.
Ironic that the last sentence is
"Take care and I hope you reach out!"
Remember, these are both GS. It seems that the part of him that could identify the problem and what must be done was desparately hoping that knowledge would take hold and prevent him from following through with his evil plan, set to unfold at any time.