Re-read the February texts, if you can stand it (I know I can't.
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). Lisa was ready to marry him. One of the most relevant points in the January 2007 emails, though, is what Travis says about his ability to commit. He couldn't. He loved Deanna, everything about their relationship felt good and right to him, and to use his words, knowing the pain he caused her by not marrying her was almost too much for him to bear. And yet, he could not bring himself to marry her. If not Deanna, then not Lisa. He came close, then tried to destroy his chances with her, and when she forgave him, he reached for the Mimi dream. He tortured himself in April and May about Lisa, but I very much doubt he would have committed to her had she magically made herself available to him.
And Mimi? He couldn't even be himself around her, as Sky and many of his other friends soon realized, given that Travis sent group texts to ask advice about virtually every word he struggled over whether to say to Mimi or not.