I was looking up online the other day, cannot for the life of me find which site as was using someone else's computer, about impulsive suicides. It stated that an impulsive suicide is one in which the person will make the decision and carry it out within about 30 mins, they will look for easiest method available to them and sadly, interviewing people who had been found on time they were most likely to regret the decision and plead to be saved. This may explain the lack of "preparation" i.e no note, the fact that her sister would be the first one to come upon her and using the scarf her sister gave (someone mentioned how her sister had given it to her for xmas). I believe this would make sense regarding the horrendous day she had endured, she was just pushed over the edge and could take no more, could probably see no end to it and had no one within her peers with which she could truly trust because they were all more connected with the people who were tormenting her. Pretty awful because if she had a friend that she trusted within reach it could have made all the difference...
yea I think what makes this even more tragic was that it was seemingly, from all accounts, a very impulsive act. The more I find out, the more I just don't think she was a depressed girl, and even if she was depression does not equal suicide. The fact that she was texting someone about the bad day she had and plugged in her phone still boggles my mind. When you're sharing with someone that you've had a bad day, you're trying to communicate, to get support, comfort, to share, to make things easier to deal with, to get another person's opinion.
I guess we would have to know exactly what Phoebe was saying: was she simply talking about what a bad day she was having or was she saying she couldn't take it anymore? did she sound suicidal in those final texts? was someone else texting her and these final texts sent her over the edge? did something else happen that pushed her over the edge? I just feel like something happened after she got home that really made things worse. I could be totally wrong about all of this of course so obviously jmo.
I mentioned earlier another girl who had committed suicide, Kristina Calco. More info about her can be found here
http://www.theshabbycastle.com/kristinacalco. I bring her up because I really love something her mother said in her eulogy at Kristina's funeral.
For whatever reason, in the wee morning hours of Sunday December 4th, Kristina lost her focus. The stage had been set and with such a frail and sensitive soul, she just couldn't bear the pain that had consumed her. In that one tiny infinitesimal instant, Kristina made the choice to kill herself. Suicide seemed her only escape....her only way out....her only way to end the pain.
Kristina's story is a bit different than Phoebe's, as I said earlier she wrote two suicide notes and had mentioned suicide several times in her journals, even though her mother never picked up on any depression. However I think the part about losing focus is true for a lot of young suicide's. At this young of an age, your brain isn't even fully finished developing and isn't capable of grasping the things that you can as an adult. I tend to think more adult suicides, obviously not all but maybe most, are a result of a long, seemingly never ending battle with depression, whether brought on by certain events or not.
Well speaking of losing focus I kind of forgot where I was going with that so I apologize and also apologize if I didn't make sense. Obviously people commit suicide for a number of different reasons under a number of different circumstances so I'm definitely not trying to generalize. anyway sorry for the rambling.