I just watched the Team Travis video. I had to wait till the end of my night cuz I knew what my reaction would be, and I'm there right now....
I have so so many thoughts running through my mind and so so many emotions.
I can't let myself go where I am I tonight, very often. It's just too much.
What I want to send out to the Universe is this....
Travis Victor Alexander, I would have been proud to be your Mom.
To all of the Alexander children, I would have been proud to have called you mine.
JA, I would work OT and sacrifice things in my life to be able to fly there and hit the button that loads the syringes. I have never ever felt this much loathing for another human being. But you, JA are NOT human. And you deserve all that hell can heap on you.
Sorry, all, but I could sit there are stare into her eyes as they are waiting for the injections to hit. Its not like me to feel this way, but it is what it is.
My heart is broken, like all of you. It's just tonight I allowed myself to go there. Tomorrow I won't. I can't. But every few days, I have to, to let it seep back in, and then blast it out.
We've seen goodness, in Travis, his family and those heroes, JM and Det. Flores....and we've seen EVIL. I won't even type out their names.
I understand having to represent a client, but in the name of all that is holy, how can you do what you've done to trash precious Travis?
Okay, I'm heading to bed. I have my Kleenex and lots of prayers to say.
Thank you all for letting me share, vent and cry here.
You all are very very special to me too