Excerpt from Reeva's text to OP on 26 January 2013
I am the girl who let go with u even when I was scared out of my mind to, I'm the girl who fell in love with you and wanted to tell you this weekend.
After being able to read the text in its entirety, I think this particular bit where Reeva talked about 'being scared out of her mind' is referring to her having (justifiable) reservations about letting go & falling in love with OP.
This other bit, though, I have no doubt referred to actual fear of OP and/or his actions/reactions:
I'm scared of u sometimes and how u snap at me and of how you will react to me.
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IIRC, Reeva had been in an abusive relationship in the past. I think she saw the warning signs in OP's behavior (based on the things she mentioned in her text to him), which caused her to feel ambivalent about falling in love with him. I think OP was probably very convincing in his apologies following his abusive behavior. I also think Reeva was a very loving person - the kind of person who sees the best in people, which was why she was so beloved by everyone who knew her and which was why she forgave him when he treated her atrociously.
It's apparent to me that Reeva expended a lot of energy trying to avoid saying or doing anything that might set OP off - trying not to 'rock the boat' as she put it. This is typical in abusive relationships.
I truly don't believe that OP accepted her for the wonderful, fun, perfect-just-the-way-you-are person that she was. But then, this is also typical of an abusive person - nothing one says or does is ever good enough. It's a classic form of psychological abuse that, over time, undermines and destroys one's self-esteem until the victim believes the lie that they are so worthless that no one but the abuser could ever love them. Then they're right where the abuser wants them: completely under their control.
OP's criticisms of Reeva have absolutely nothing to do with anything Reeva said or did, but they have everything to do with OP's obsessive need to control. Although there's no direct evidence to support the following supposition, I suspect the night OP shot & killed Reeva may have been because he saw his control slipping away.
If it's true (I believe it is) that they were engaged in a heated argument (as heard by Mrs. van der Merwe), it could be that Reeva had finally had enough and wanted to end the relationship and leave. This could be why the bedroom door was locked - to prevent Reeva from leaving.
Roux wants to dismiss OP's verbal, emotional, and psychological abuse of Reeva by pointing to a handful of lovey-dovey text messages. As anyone who has ever been in an abusive relationship can attest: the episodes of abuse are typically interspersed between 'honeymoon' periods, followed by ever-tightening spirals of abuse, as the abuse escalates over time.
As I've stated on a previous thread, given everything we've learned about OP's temperament, his rages, his jealous nature, and his quickness to reach for his gun, and given what I know about the spiral of abuse, I'm not at all surprised that he shot and killed Reeva. I'm deeply saddened that he did, but not surprised.