Thank you CARIIS. When they hear those voices in their head, they are as real to them, as if someone is in front of them, speaking to them. When they see the visions, they are so real. I know everyone hates this man but he had a sickness, just like someone with cancer, imo.
I hope this is not against TOS and the link is allowed, but this young lady was diagnosed with schizophrenia and has started coping by drawing what she sees. I can't imagine seeing these type things all of the time, and them being so real.
[FONT=&]"My illustrations make me feel less lonely, so I hope I can do the same for other people."[/FONT]
https://www.buzzfeed.com/juliegerst...-schizophrenic?utm_term=.ykkabgdlR#.kalJm9r5L
TY!
I will never forget an individual, who suffered from schizophrenia, had cleared a bit after being on meds for a bit described it to me like this.
He said it is like being between two radio stations, when both are going, but neither one is clear and there is static as well .
Don't know why but from the moment I heard he started shooting as he approached the building that represented religion with fever that switched me up.
That is symbolic. Rage at an entity based on early wounding. Then several days later when I saw the drone wide shot of the yellow bullet markers outside the church it gave me chills.
It was spraying. It was not even trying to hit anything. It was totally out of control. Frenzied. Visually I saw the texas chainsaw massacre guy when he is rearing up and back wailing the chainsaw around with wild abandon.
I am interested in the threatening text - verbatim - it context. It is like divorce court or very delusional?
He is dead. I do not understand why there has not been more revelations about the conflicts .
This is morbid - kinda - but the cell phone stuff also blew my mind. Solved. I think! They should have taken the phone to his fingers (if that is part of it) for his fingerprint.
Everyone is hacking everyones passwords. It is hard to grasp that if it is like a regular password that cant be overcome. But if it is one of those fingerprint deals it seems like that would have solved it
At the same time - for some reason I don't really think his phone is going to add much.
What basic sense we have from SM seems like it would be basically the same kind of themes.
It might I suppose give us insight into the severity and frequency of delusions if they were in fact present or exacerbating in recent weeks.
While at the same time, IMO, there is much data, in terms of serious delusional patterns going on for some time to have come to the conclusion (and do it) that one needs weapons on a navy base. That is some bizarre thinking patterns.
Only mo - that also has profound notions of paranoia - to believe that he needs guns to protect himself from military commanders.
All this is omo - but it stirred up notions of command hallucinations - being told to get them on base.
On a final note - sorta - two kinds of voices. Those that are inside ones mind - and those that are external - kinda like being "told" .
Don't recall the order, but malingering is easier to determine ( like for folks trying to feign psychotic stuff) if they present more internal or external voices but don't remember the order!!
I am certainly no implying he was not the real deal .
His med history might be very telling as well.
I suspect he was out in the barn because they were mortified of him - in childhood would not be surprised if he was pulling knives or stuff on family members.
And then they are in really rural area. That would influence IMO notions about mental illness - but am thrown off by dads vocation. Education typically can be helpful in terms of family response to a loved one being sick.
I found this : Lets take two identical children (for our purposes). One in working class rural environment, another in an affluent educated family system.
Thanksgiving, In each event same behavior - child flips over the table.
Making generalizations but there are dynamics that ring true at least in my exp.
In both family settings LE is called.
In the lower social economic setting arrest is wanted.
In the other family system (again generalizations but validity) when LE arrived family members insist that loved one be transported to a mental facility - not locked up.
The messages tho - for the ill child - are wildly different...............................
enough babbling I tell myself !